Chapter 8

Yasmin's POV

The sound of footsteps getting closer causes me to quickly get into bed. Wrapping the duvet up to my chin and closing my eyes. The door comes out feeling Robbie's presence enter the room. "Don't play games Yasmin." Robbie snaps loudly closing the door behind him. Very slowly I open my eyes enough for me to see his dark figure standing in front me. "What the hell have you done?!" Why is he acting like I've committed a crime or something?
"Have you heard yourself?? I'm doing this for two amazing friends of ours who want to become parents...what a beautiful thing....and you're making it sound like god knows what. Get a grip of yourself Robbie."
Narrowing his eyebrows he shakes his head at me. "We haven't even spoken about and you've made a decision?! Are we a couple or not? For gods sake Yasmin you're not going to get anything out of it apart from a couple of 'thank yous' you're going to go through all that to have the baby taken from you will you be able to cope? IVF is risky you do know that right?"
Tears burn in my eyes. I want Mark and Gary to enjoy the happiness of becoming parents its a wonderful feeling and if I can play a part in helping their dream come true then its a risk I'm going to take. "Yes. Like I said its my body, and as my husband you should at least respect my decision and support me. If not. There's the door." My breathing becomes a little shaky. Seriously I'm just pushing him away to the other woman. He's going to run any second into her arms.

For a few seconds Robbie stands there incomplete thought. He tilts his head backwards and closes his eyes before giving out a quiet sigh. "Ok. I'll be there..." He rubs his forehead. "I'll...support your decision...doesn't mean I'm happy with it...but as your husband I'll respect your choice." My eyes widen by his words not expecting to hear those words leave his lips.
"R...Really?"
Robbie nods. "Yeah...but remember what I said about everything...you're gonna grow attached...seeing as you're the carrier, but this will be Mark and Gary's baby not ours. Eleanor is ours, so don't go telling people that its a brother or sister for her. Don't hide it away tell the truth seeing as you're all for it you will tell people exactly what you're doing without getting embarrassed or whatever. I agree it is a good thing you're doing...sometimes you're too kind, but that's just you." He sighs. "When are you thinking of going?"
Absorbing everything he's said he's right it will be hard after getting attached, but at least I still have Eleanor...and hopefully Robbie to get me through it. "Erm...W..Wednesday."
"Wednesday??" Robbie looks a little shocked. "This coming Wednesday?!"
Words fail to leave my lips looking at his face expression. "Uh...huh.."
"B...but that's only 5 days away...really? Do Mark and Gary even know?"
Playing with the duvet a little to hide my nerves. His reactions are making me even more nervous. "No not yet...I was going to ring them tomorrow after booking an appointment...that's the day Emily's coming round, so I was going to ask her to babysit Eleanor whilst we all go." Emily is a friend of my side of the family. She's an ex nurse so she has experience with children. I only leave my daughter with someone I put full trust into.
"R...right ok..." Robbie pulls out his phone and starts to text someone. My eyes glance over at his phone which he pulls from my view.
"W..who are you texting?"
He continues typing the message not looking up from the screen. "Erm...I was er...going to go into Abbey Road studio that day...so I just told them I'll make it another day." Quickly he puts his phone back into his pocket. Liar. He was texting her wasn't he..? "O...oh...okay..." Swallowing hard I allow my head to sink into my pillow. This pains me keeping it inside, but I need him that's why I can't confront him. Not yet anyway.

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(The next morning)

Gary's POV

"What about Jake?" Mark asks whilst crunching his cereal at the breakfast table. Squinting my eyes a little I think for a second or two.
"Jake's a bit common isn't it? What about Jacob?"
"Jacob Colin? Hmmm....erm.... What about Billy?" Both of us look at one another and giggle a little.
"Sounds like an old singer does that lad...erm...Ryan?" I sip my coffee whilst watching Mark eat.
He nods slowly. "Ryan...? I like Ryan...erm..What about something different....Kalem?"
"Haven't heard Kalem before... But Kalem Colin doesn't really go together babe..?" Frowning my lips a little. "This is harder than I thought...Lucas?" We both shake our heads disagreeing. We're going to be here all day thinking of names. We haven't even set a date when we are actually going in for the appointment. "We've still got the girl names to think of soon too."
"Hmmm..." Mark scratches his chin. "Thomas?" Silence fills the room for a couple of seconds.
"Thomas Colin... I like that..." My eyes light up. "I really like the name Thomas....little Tommy...awww..."Mark stares a little with the spoon slightly pressed against his lips not saying a word. "Babe? Are you ok?" Gently i tap the top of his hand.
He shakes his head a little. "Oh yeah...yeah i'm fine... was just thinking..."
"What abo-" My phone buzzing interrupts me. (1) new message - Yaz.
Mark lifts his head a little to look at the screen. "What's it say?" I click open the message whilst scanning it quickly. 'Hiya Gaz it's Yasmin. Me and Robbie have been speaking... and we've both decided to go ahead with carrying the baby for you and Mark. I've booked an appointment for this coming Wednesday make sure you are both free and we'll meet you at the clinic... see you Daddies soon x' 

Swallowing hard trying to keep the tears in i re read the message in my head several times. Is this real? "Gary? Gaz what is it? Talk to me?" Mark looks concerned taking my hands in his whilst his eyes search for an answer on my face. Without saying anything i hand him the mobile let him read for himself. Still looked concerned Mark takes the mobile and starts to read. "O...oh...oh....wow...oh god..." His voice trembles and strokes his eyes. Biting my lip i get out from my seat kneeling in front of him.
"It's real....we're going to be parents..." Tears come streaming down my face whilst looking up at Mark who's face is dripping from tears.
"Oh Gary..." He tightly wraps his arms around the back of my neck as we both happily sob together.

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I sit in my studio upstairs trying some new medleys on my piano. Maybe I shouldn't start a solo album at the minute there's so much going off in my life right now, but at least I should try and write a single? "Knock knock." Mark pokes his head around the door grinning.
"Hiya handsome." I smile looking over my left shoulder as Mark makes his way inside.
"Don't work too hard babe." Gently he kisses me on the forehead.
"I know..I know...I'm just trying to think of new stuff for me new material...harder than I thought....especially with babies on my mind." Laughing a little whilst I continue pressing random notes.
Mark walks around to the front of the piano leaning his elbows on the top looking at me just like he did on the Ultimate tour during 'A million love songs.' "You'll think of something...you're a musical genius."
A light shade of red appears on my cheeks. "Oh don't..."

Mark continues to stare at me watching me make up different medley's. "Play me something?" He finally speaks.
"What do you mean? These are only random notes." Taking my hands from the keys I look into his love filled eyes.
"I mean...a song...something from your previous solo career...play me one which reminds you of me..." Shyly he smiles at me. Biting my lip a little I think for a second of a song piecing lyrics together which are suiting to Mark. All of a sudden it hits me. Perfect! My hands reach towards the keys again as I begin playing soft slow notes.
"I haven't done this one in years, so please forgive me if I get it wrong."
Excitedly Mark nods his hands placed either side of his cheeks watching my fingers find the right keys.

Gently I clear my throat before I start singing the same time as playing the piano with my eyes fixed onto Mark's. "I'm sure that you've heard this before so many times...yeah...'Mark' look inside my heart and you will find...you will find your superhero...I'll be the one to hold you...I'll never let you go....I'll always understand you baby....to be your superhero....for all that you want for all that you're feeling. There's a place where you can go for all that you need I will be waiting to be your superhero...I will be waiting....to be your...superhero...." Once i've finished i bring my eyes up to meet his again. His face is blank maybe he didn't enjoy it? "Sorry...i guess my solo songs aren't what i thought they were..." Mark still doesn't say anything he walks around the piano so he's standing in front of me. "Mark? Are yo-" His lips press very softly against mine. When we break away our foreheads rest against one anothers. Mark looks at me whilst kneeling taking my hands in his placing a soft kiss on the top.
"That was just perfect...no one has ever done that before... i love you so much Gary...never leave me..." He places another kiss on my hand. "Ever...."
Softly i whisper nuzzling my nose into his hair breathing in his scent. "Never....ever...i promise..."
"Bring on Wednesday...." His hand strokes the top of me knee whilst we remain in the same position.
"Can't wait baby..."