Chapter 21

Mark's POV

"Mark? Babe? Are you there?" Loudly a voice speaks knocking me out of my daze . Shaking my head i clear my throat before speaking.
"Hello Gaz."
"You alright? You don't sound yourself?" It's hard to hear him over the music in the background. Wish i was there instead of feeling like an old man in bed.
"Y...Yeah... i'm fine... got a bloody cold... and missing you.." Grabbing a tissue i blow my nose. There's not much point seeing as it becomes blocked again within a second.
"Oh babe.... you sound awful... i wont be long promise..." Even though i can't see his face i can picture him standing in a corner near the toilets with a finger in his ear and a grin plastered on his face.
"I'm fine honest... see you in a bit..."
"See you soon... love you loads."
"Love you too gorgeous." I smile to myself once we hang up. We've only been apart no longer than 2 hours and i miss him terribly. God knows how i'll cope when one of us goes on a solo tour.

"Mark? Are you still awake?" Jason opens the door enough for him to poke his head around to see me still sitting there stroking the phone screen.
"Yeah uh..."
Jason walks in carrying a tray with a bowl and what it looks like half a loaf of bread at the side of it. "Here get this down you...you'll feel better." Howard follows him smiling softly at me as they both sit on the edge of the bed.
"Jeez... do you want me to explode? I would like to actually walk out of bed you know." I take the tray resting it on my lap. It's Gary's home made pea and ham soup he uses it for part of his diet and makes me eat it with him.
"Eat up. You need some meat on those bones of yours otherwise you'll fade away. When was the last time you had a proper meal?" Howard raises an eyebrow whilst crossing his leg. Is he hinting about Gary not caring for me or something? I knew i shouldn't of said anything now i'm just going to be treated like a child.
"He does feed me you know. I'm not a prisoner." Muttering under my breath i dunk a chunk of bread into the soup before chewing on it slowly.
"I never said that Mark... you just.. look like you've lost a bit of weight that's all..."
"I've been under a bit of stress lately that's all both me and Gary have especially over almost losing our first child what do you expect!" For the first time i don't back down i don't take it on the chin like i usually do. I'm sometimes sensitives about my appearance especially my weight. "So i guess the pair of you had a good talk about Gaz then?" I ask looking from Jason to Howard. "Howard?" He doesn't reply he just runs his thumb along each one of his eyebrows. "....Jay?" Neither of them answer me which frustrates me even more. I'm protective over Gary and if they have something to say about him i want to know. "Someone speak then?!"

"....we've been thinking.... maybe he should.... erm... attend... some classes..." Jason bites the tip of his tongue looking concerned at me.
"Classes? Why do he need classes for?" I shake my head with confusion running through my mind.
"F...for... Anger..."
My jaw drops a little hearing Jason's response. Anger. Gary going to anger classes?! He doesn't need them! It's only happened once... or twice and we sorted it.
"We're worried about you Mark that's all." Howard gently places his hand onto my shoulder which i just end up shrugging off.
"Well there's no need. Listen to yourselves you're making out Gary's abusive towards me which he's far from!"
"We didn't mean it like that Mar-"
I raise my hand to their direction stopping them from saying anything else. "Just go. You've said enough. Call yourselves friends? Just...just go."
Howard looks at Jason and releases a sigh before standing to his feet. "If you need anything... just give us a ring... we care about you Mark...always will."
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Footsteps creep along the laminate flooring on the hallway. Almost instant my eyes open from my light sleep. Someones in the house? Nervously my eyes glance over at the bedside clock. 1:30am. Gary's been out almost 5 hours. "G...Gaz?" I call out when the footsteps sound on the stairs. No answer. My heart begins to throb in my chest. Maybe it's not Gary...what if it's the person who's after me... i've got no where to hide. Very slowly the door handle turns. Feeling incredibly scared now i pull the duvet over my head trying to lay as flat as possible controlling my heavy breathing. The floor boards creak and a dark shadow hovers above me. No please. Not now. I need Gary. A hand pushes onto the duvet which my face is pressed against taking a tighter grip to the covers they slowly start to be pulled off me making me even more terrified than before. "Don't please! Please don't hurt me! Please!" Curling up into a ball i feel myself being fully exposed from the covers.
"Hey! Hey ssssh.. it's only me." The whole of my body trembles from fear, until i hear the voice. That familiar voice. Lifting my head weakly looking at the figure who now sits on the bed space beside me coiling an arm around my waist.
"G....G...Gary??! You bastard! You scared me! You....s..scared...the life out of me! Why didn't you answer me?! I...I... i thought... oh gosh..." My body becomes limp as my head crashes onto his chest.
"Oh Mark... i'm so sorry babe... the tv was on... i swear i didn't hear you... i thought you was asleep... it's ok... i'm here now... i'm here..." Gently Gary rocks me against his chest planting kisses in my hair trying to calm me down the best he can. Slightly i relax under his warm touch wrapping my arms around his nuzzling my cheek in the small patch of blond chest hair which pokes through the undone buttons of his shirt.

After 15 minutes i finally pull away from the hug wiping my tears and slight running nose on the back of my hand. Gross i know. "So...how...how was the gig?" I ask wrapping myself back under the duvet feeling the cold breeze from the open bedroom door.
"It was great...always love a gig... expect something didn't feel right..." Nudging over to me he wraps his arm around my shoulder.
"Oh? Why's that?"
He pokes the end of my nose with his index finger placing a kiss onto my forehead. "Because my gorgeous boyfriend wasn't there..."
"You big softie... i love you..." Holding him tighter i kiss trails around his chest and the fabric of his shirt just inhaling his scent happy he's finally home again. Carefully using the tips of his three fingers he places them under my chin hoovering his lips over mine. Pulling away slightly i panic. "Oh... you can't Gaz... you'll catch my germs... don't want you ill aswell."
"Sod it... i've missed you... i'm bigger than you i can fight them off better." Not giving it anymore thought he plunges his lips over mine giving me a breath taking kiss. Fixing his hand against the back of my head pushing my lips completely onto his. Neither of us break away my back becomes in contact with the mattress pulling Gary with me by gripping to his shirt. The sound of his shoes drop to the floor as he kicks them from his feet bringing his legs either side of my waist.

The kisses become quick my teeth skim the bottom of his lip whilst my hands begin to claw at his half unbuttoned shirt. "It's...been a while..." Gary presses his forehead against mine with his eyes firmly closed. Once i reach the final button on his shirt i peel it from his skin leaving him shirtless above me.
"Tell me... about it... too long... god i've missed you...as stupid as it sounds... i really have..." A slick finger is pressed against my lips stopping anymore words from leaving them. Gary reaches under my shirt stroking my stomach brushing his cold finger tips around my navel which causes me to grip my lip in between my teeth. Taking the bottom of my t shirt Gary pulls it over my head messing my hair so it becomes a fluffy mess. I don't care.

"You know...i've been shopping a few days ago...for some surprises..." Gary nibbles along my jawline sliding his tongue around my light stubble.
"O....oh? W...What...for?" I breath a throaty moan enjoying the feel of Gary's tongue making contact with my skin. He slides his tongue back into his mouth passing off a wink at me before reaching under the bed searching for something. Sitting up a little i stare at his backside which wiggles whilst he continues looking for his 'surprise' i have to force myself not to just him a tight whack. Quickly i pull my hand out of sight when Gary turns back around hiding something behind his back. "What have you got there?" Sneaking my head over his shoulder trying to have a look what he has tightly gripped in his fist, but before i do he gently pushes me flat to the mattress again.
"Relax..." Gary moves to the very end of the bed removing my pj bottoms along with my boxers. Taking a couple of slow deep breathes i try and look at him only seeing the top of his head at the bottom of the bed. What is he up to? Laying back down i do as says 'relax' unexpectedly i feel something cold and slightly wet push against my entrance.

"UH!" My eyes widen by the feel of it. Looking over at Gary concentration fills his face as he continues to push it deeper into me. "Ooooh..." I release a moan arching my back as he begins to move it in and out of me a little faster still only having it partly inside of me. By surprise there's a slight vibration which also enters me. Now i know exactly what Gary's bought.
"Like that baby?" Gary whispers quietly enough for me to feel the warmth of his breath against my thigh.
Biting my lip harder my hands tug at the duvet underneath me.  "Mm....mmm...uh....m...more...p...pl..please..."
More vibrations are added making me moan out from the pleasurable pain. "Oooh....god...yes...yes...that's...it...." Gripping tighter to the duvet my knuckles begin to turn white when Gary starts to hit it in all the right places making me squirm. Whilst he continues pleasuring me his free hand strokes along my semi- hard erection pumping it slowly before wrapping his lips tightly around me. Bobbing his head in a rhythmic pattern my eyes roll into the back of my head causing my back to arch and my legs to wrap around his neck.

My teeth chatter together feeling my orgasm approach only my head and top of my back remains fixed to the mattress whilst the other half of me hovers. Tightening my legs a little more around Gary's neck almost making him choke on me once i hit the back of his throat every now and then. "I...I...i'm....oh....Gary...i'm...." Warning him loud groans leave my parted lips until i feel Gary pull away abruptly also removing his lips from me allowing the sharp cold air to hit my wet skin. Snapping open my eyes i look at him as he begins to remove his trousers i know what's coming now. Panting heavily i lay my naked body back down feeling Gary crawl up me. His hands trail from my groin all the way up to my chin which he starts to plant kisses on and around my face. "God...i... i love you..." Taking his cheeks in my hand we stare into one anothers eyes whilst he positions himself against me. Very slowly he nudges himself deep inside of me making me squeeze his face a little tighter.  "I love you too... always will... promise..." Gary seals the promise with a passionate kiss whilst thrusting inside of me. Not having sex, but making love. There's  a difference. His thrusts deepen drawing soft cries from me which he mutes with his lips.

We've been making love for the past 20 minutes and after the pleasure he gave me before i can't hold it back any longer. "G...Gaz...i..." His fist still remains around my erection thrusting his hand against it.
"Come babe... come for me..." Sucking against my pulse point his teeth slightly graze my neck pushing me over the edge bringing him with me, as we both climax together. "Oooooh Markooo..."
"Gosh....Oh god Gary... fuck!!!" Shooting my load onto his stomach and palm. Feeling tired i pull him onto me wrapping my arms tight around the back of his neck allowing our sweaty forehead to connect, as we pant for our breath back.
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"What a great surprise Mr Barlow..." I smile brushing my hand through his fluffy damp hair.
"Mmm... i know... can't wait for our holiday... just me...and you... together... alone... away from people so you can do all the screaming you like." Cheekily he grins lifting his head nuzzling beside me in bed. He wraps us both in the duvet as we lay together in one anothers arms naked after our passionate embrace.
"Screaming? I don't scream!" Gently i poke him in the chest smiling sweetly at him.
"You could fool me Mr Owen... when did the boys leave?" He stretches his arms around me pulling me closer enough for me to hear his steady heart beat.
"About...erm... 9 ish."

Gary lifts his head raising his eyebrow as a smudge of confusion shows on his face. "But... that means they were only here half an hour? Did something happen?" He frowns his eyebrows looking at me. Softly i shrug resting my head onto his upper arm. "Mark.. tell me?"
"We just had... a disagreement that's all..."
"What about?"
"I don't want to talk about it Gary.." I sigh rubbing my eyes feeling them get heavier by the second.
Gary shakes his head a little annoyed, but also concerned. "Babe...please? Don't hide it away it's clearly upsetting you... please?"
"We... we were just talking... and they got the wrong idea... i didn't mean for it to come out the way it did.. i'm sorry Gaz..."
"I don't understand? What have you said?"
His eyes sadden whilst looking at me searching for answers. I can't lie to him. "I told them... about when...well you know...you getting angry with me... i know it only happened once...or twice... but..they suggested that... you... you should...erm..."
"Spit it out Mark..." Gary speaks calmly, but coldly.
"Anger management classes..." Swallowing hard i can't even bring myself to look him in the eyes. It's almost like i hear a crack form in his heart.
"O...oh..." His voice shakes.