Gary's POV
"Close your eyes...hold out your hands." Mark grins searching through the drawer looking at me with excitement and slight worry in his eyes. Slowly i close my eyes lifting up my hands to my chest. Within a few seconds something is placed on my palms. Weightless. Paper perhaps? "O...ok...open..." He swallows hard waiting for my reaction. Flickering my eyelids i peer through them at the paper rests in my hands. Once my eyes are fully open i scan the white sheet. 'Apartment Manon Des Neiges.' "W...what's this babe?" Asking with a confused look i continue looking at the paper it shows an apartment at the top left.
"I...er... well... i booked us a holiday... for Christmas..."
Feeling surprised i read a bit more of it. 'Open plan kitchen, dining living areas, log fire, heated Jacuzzi, great views facing south over Rhone Valley and French Alps.' This sounds amazing! "Where is this babe?"
Mark chuckles a little snuggling closer to me. "You know Barlow you're not as smart as you look..." He points to the photo. "Take a closer look...what can you see around the apartment?" Squinting my eyes a little i take a better look of the small photo. There's not sand nor grass, but something i didn't expect.
"Snow? Is that snow?"
"Well i don't know anything else which is white do you? Oh don't answer that..." Cheekily he nudges me in the ribs. "I booked us an apartment in Switzerland... for the two of us... to spend our Christmas together..." My jaw drops. Switzerland?! I've never been there before, and the fact that it's going to be my favourite season with my favourite man i couldn't ask for any better surprise.
"O...Oh...Ma...Mark... oh gosh..." Tears begin to fill my eyes. I've never had such a beautiful surprise before i know i can go anywhere when i like in the world, but the fact Mark planned this all himself is just... wow.
"Don't cry now... you'll start me off." Tightly he wraps his arms around the back of my neck planting a huge wet kiss onto my cheek.
"Thank you..... god thank you.... this is the best thing someones ever planned by themselves i-"
Mark places his finger against my lips to stop me from talking. "Shhh... i did this... because i love you...ok?" Resting my chin against his shoulder i pull him into a hug almost squeezing him. "I love you so much..."
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"Do you want eggs?" I ask flipping over a few slices of bacon causing them to hiss loudly. Mark wraps his arms around my waist standing on his tip toes to rest his chin onto my shoulder.
"Please."
"Beans?"
Mark holds me tighter. "Yes please."
"Sausage?"
"Mmm... yes please...." Sneakily Mark gives my bulge a gentle squeeze making me moan loudly.
Quickly i bat his hand away before we get burnt with the sizzling bacon. "Mark Owen! I'm trying to cook here!"
"Ooooft... naked chef..." He giggles giving my bum a slap. Is he trying to make me burn the breakfast? I can't lie... i am getting turned on. Softly he plants kisses onto my collar bone and shoulder feeling his warm breath tickle the wet spots he leaves on my skin. "Be right back... night to go to the toilet..."
"Don't be long... food's almost ready... and so am i..." Biting my lip i watch as he quickly jogs upstairs.
The sound of the postman delivering mail catches my attention. Once the breakfast has been cooked i turn everything off, so i can collect the mail from the hallway. "Bill... bill... crap... more crap... and...oh." Under all the pile of letters there's a plain brown coloured envelope. Oddly it has no address or name on. Studying the envelope i decide to open it tearing off the top and sliding out a sheet of coloured paper. More surprises from Mark?
"What's that babe?" Mark asks skipping down the stairs. Slowly i turn the paper over revealing newspaper clippings of words. 'Mark Owen the heart breaker... secrets coming soon.' Reading the words several times it doesn't make sense. "Gaz? What is it?"
"I...I don't get it... who's this from....? Secrets? Heart breaker?" My stomach begins to do flips by the words 'heart breaker and secrets.' Mark takes the paper from my grip and quickly reads it. "What does it mean Mark? What's happened?!" I ask with a shaky breath almost feeling sick.
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Yasmin's POV
I stare out the window at Robbie and Eleanor whilst washing the dishes. Scooping sand from the sand box which they are both sitting in with grins plastered on their faces. Very softly my ears fill with the sound of Eleanor's giggles. What a beautiful thing to see... without a doubt Robbie is an amazing Dad. I start to neatly place the clean plates back into the right cupboards completely lost in my own world. "Say 'ello to Mummy..." Robbie's voice speaks behind me causing me to flinch slightly.
"M...Mu...Mummmaa!" Eleanor stretches her arms out to me. Robbie grins holding the little blond girl in his arms. What a perfect image.
"Hello princess." Carefully i lift her from Robbie giving her a little cuddle. Gently Robbie places a kiss onto my cheek whilst he wraps his arm around my waist. This is how we should be. A proper family just the two of us and our daughter.
"How're you babe?" He strokes his hand up against my back nuzzling his face against my neck.
"I'm...good....thank you..." Happily i sigh whilst being in the moment. "You?"
"As long as my two girls are happy then so am i." Planting another kiss onto my cheek he points to Eleanor who's dozed off in my arms. "I see my sandcastles did the trick." He winks.
"Bless her... i best take her to bed... she looks tired out."
I take Eleanor upstairs with Robbie shortly following behind. Placing her into her pink bed with bunnies on the duvet i tuck her in before placing a kiss onto her forehead. "Night darling..." Quietly i creep out of the bedroom turning the light off behind me. Robbie stands at the door way smiling softly watching my every move.
"She's a good one isn't she? Takes after her Daddy on that." Cheekily he winks.
"Er...y...yeah...she does..." I give him a fake smile walking out of her bedroom. A hand grips to my arm pulling me back a little causing me to fall against Robbie's chest. We stare into one another's eyes for a minute or so. It feels so long since we've been this close.
"I've missed you..." He whispers.
"I've mi-" My words get muted by Robbie's lips pressing against mine. Passionately kissing me. Instantly wrapping my arms around his waist pulling him close. God i've missed this so much. Walking backwards Robbie guides me to our bedroom. Butterflies feel my stomach by the touch of his fingers and the taste of his lips. I've been longing for this moment almost like it's the first time we've met. The bed catches us allowing us to fall onto it.
My hands strokes up the back of his shirt stroking his bare flesh. This feels amazing. His lips continue to make contact somewhere on my skin especially my pulse point in my neck which he begins to suck "Ooooh Rob..." Not waiting around any longer he starts to undress me one item of clothing at a time. Leaving me in my lacy underwear. I haven't done the washing so my 'special' underwear was the only option i had to wear... and a good thing too! He takes a few steps back admiring me. Very slowly his flushed cheeks, cheekily grin and lust in his eyes start to disappear. Fading into a blank expression. "R...Rob? Is there something wrong? Don't you like my underwear?" I ask trying to be funny. Not once does he smile instead he swallows hard and bows his head. "What is it?" Panic strikes in my eyes. If he's going to confess about having an affair i can't take it right now.
"I...I can't..." A sigh leaves his parted lips whilst straightening up his clothes again.
"C..can't? W..why?" Has he gone off me? Am i not as good looking or as good at making love with him like the other woman?
"Because..."
Tears burn in my eyes. This is torture. "Rob tell me!!" Loudly i call surprised that Eleanor hasn't woken up yet.
"Not whilst you could be carrying someones baby... i can't have sex with you... i can't... sorry...." Quickly he leaves the room slamming the door behind him.
Sunday, 29 September 2013
Tuesday, 24 September 2013
chapter 10
Gary's POV
"What are you talking about babe?" Robbie laughs a little stroking her arm. "How did it go?"
Bowing her head a little she sighs. "That perfume...it isn't mine... Where have you been?"
"I...I went shopping? I told you. Maybe I tried a few perfume samples for you, but now I guess that isn't a surprise anymore.." He shakes his head a little holding her hands. None of us believe him, but for now Yasmin holds it back.
"Oh...ok.." Forcefully she smiles. "Can we go home? I'm knackered..."
Placing a kiss onto her forehead he agrees. We say our goodbyes watching them leave the hospital.
"Wow.." Mark rubs his forehead once they've left. "Did she actually believe him?"
"No...course not...you could read her face...she knows exactly what he's up to, but she doesn't want to loose him." Releasing a deep sigh I can't help but feel guilty.
"Hey...this isn't your fault Gaz...you're not involved at all." He rubs my back comforting me.
"But what if this is all down to revenge? She cheated and now he's doing it?"
"That was a year ago and if that is the case then he's a very stupid man...come on let's get home I'll do us dinner." Gently he pecks me on the cheek whilst we make our way back to the car.
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"Babe I'm going for a quick run." I walk towards the kitchen wearing my grey tracksuit.
"Now? I'm about to start dinner?" He stops the dinner preparation looking at me in a worried manner.
"Yeah...I need to clear my head that's all...I'm be 10 minutes max..." Staring into those deep blue misted eyes sensing his worry, fighting his worry Mark agrees to let me go anyway.
"Be careful...love you." Tasting his lips on mine as he gives me a quick kiss.
"I will babe. Love you too."
The run isn't really a 'run' its more of a jog whilst getting lost in my own world. Yasmin doesn't need this stress from Robbie especially now that she could be pregnant again, and I'll do everything I can to protect the baby. Within 5 minutes of being on my run I hatch up a plan. Perfect. She'll come and live with me...and Mark. At least this way she will be stress free and no longer caught up in Robbie's games, but now its just Mark to lower his protective guard over me. The guard of letting a good looking woman around the house without questions and worry about the pair of us being left alone together at some point. Of course nothing will happen between me and Yasmin...although she might be carrying my baby or the baby which will be part of me now we will grow closer to one another. I just need Mark on my side. With a cheeky glare I decide to end my run a little early heading back to our house. I'll seduce him.
Very quietly I enter our house pulling down the door handle whilst closing the door, so it makes no sound. I remove my trainers leaving them beside the door before I start to slide on the laminate flooring towards the kitchen. Mark's cutting some vegetables up with his back facing me whilst he softly hums and mumbles some tune. 'Dear darlin' by Olly Murs?' Biting my lip preventing my heavy breathing from my run to be heard I make my way over to him. Sliding my arms around his waist as I nuzzle my face against his neck. He flinches almost chopping off one of his fingers. "Fucking hell Gary!" Mark cries out tossing the knife into the sink. "You almost chopped me bloody hand off!" Trying to release my grip on him he tries his best to escape my embrace to give me a good telling off, but its no use. What chance does this man have putting up a fight with a man like me?
Planting a few kisses on his neck and jaw line Mark finally surrenders rocking backwards into my arms, as we just stand together with Mark neatly wrapped in my arms. "Bastard. How did the run go?"
"S'okay." I mutter against his neck allowing my lips to vibrate against his now slightly damp neck. Stretching my arms down to his thighs then moving around to his backside giving his pert little arse a squeeze. "Blimey Gaz.." Mark chuckles hovering his hands behind his back stroking my torso through the thin fabric of my tight t shirt. "What have you eaten today?!" His hands soon remove from my torso and now more towards my crotch.
"Nothing...but I'm about to eat you." A breathly growl leaves my parted lips as my tongue swirls around his pulse point in his neck.
"If its not food which has made you horny? What has?" He questions feeling me getting harder by the second in my joggers. "Hello Gary...or should I say little Gary." Hiccuping through his laughs he strokes his palm a little harder against my hard forming bulge.
"You...you're the cause." Feeling the way I am I could take him right here right now in the kitchen, but the bedroom seems to be more appetizing. Entwining my fingers with his bucking my hips with one spin he now stands facing me.
Not wasting any time I plunge my tongue to the back of his throat exploring his mouth. Mark strokes my sides gripping either side of my hips pulling me closer to him, so his back is now firmly pushed against the worktop. Our kissing begins hungry crashing our tongues against one anothers as our mouths work in sync."You're... so... hard..." A grunt leaves Mark's lips whilst he looks towards his stomach which my erection is pressing against.
"Come." Taking a tight grip to his hand I drag him away from the kitchen to the direction of the hallway forcefully pushing him up against the wall before he takes the first step on the stairs. "Oh Mark..." Loudly I moan clawing at his clothes tossing them behind me into a heap. Once the smaller male is completely naked standing in front of me I don't hesitate to swing my arm over his back whilst scooping the other under his legs.
"Gaaaazz!" Mark almost chokes playfully hitting his hand against the side of my head. Worried in case I drop him on our journey to the bedroom. Securing my grip around his waist as I slowly walk upstairs making contact with his lips again. "Oh Gary..." He mumbles wrapping his arms around the back of my neck. I kick open the bedroom door once we reach our bedroom before gently placing him down onto the bed. His hand runs against the side of my cheek admiring me hoovering above his face. Without breaking away eye contact i take a few steps away from the bed removing my clothes. One item at a time teasing Mark making it unbearable for him to last any longer not having his hands somewhere on my flesh. "Fuck me already." Arching his back allowing his head to sink into his pillow. He can't hold it back anymore he wants me... and he wants me now.
Standing naked in the middle of the bedroom i finally crawl back onto the bed sucking onto Mark's lips whilst i secure myself with a condom. "Turn over..." My teeth sink into his neck as he quickly obeys my instructions now laying flat on his stomach. Positioning myself against him using a single finger which i run down from his neck hair to the bottom of his back brushing away any of his sweat droplets which have formed.
"Ready?" I ask breathing faster much more than i was before. A single nod of his head is all he replies with as i slowly bury myself deep inside of him.
"Aaaah shit... Gary...." A muffled voice moans against the pillow. Starting slow and steady i begin to make a rhythm of thrusts inside of Mark driving us both insane. Surprisingly he begins pushing his hips backwards allowing me to go even deeper.
"Oh...babe...you feel...so so...good..." I pant heavy gripping tight to his hips using them as a steady guide whilst i explore Mark.
"F...Faster...please...." Is all Mark mumbles squeezing tighter to the duvet. Doing as he says i decide to pick up the pace. Slamming harder into him sending us both over the edge.
"F...fuck..." Releasing a deep throaty groan continuing to pound deep into Mark bringing my hands into action, as i begin to slap his backside in time with my thrusts.
"G....G...Gary...I...." Mark warns me feeling his body start shake under my touch. He's close. We both are. With all my remaining energy going as fast as i possible can causing us both to finally fall over the edge shooting over loads practically everywhere. Our sweating bodies making even closer contact as i fall into a heap ontop of Mark.
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"Well....that was fucking great." Mark chuckles wrapping his naked body under the silk covers. "Maybe you should go for a run everyday if you're gonna treat me like that." He nudges me in the ribs giving me a cheeky wink. The words leaving his mouth completely goes over my head whilst i lay in my own little world thinking about what i decided during my run. "Oi... Barlow? What is it?" Bringing his head up from the duvet he rests chin on his fist.
"Oh er...nothing really...."
"Babe... tell me..." His voice turns into a more serious tone now.
Slowly bringing my eyes to meet his i take a deep breath. "I was thinking...that....er...Yasmin...should...move in?"
Mark's face remains blank. He blinks a few times absorbing my words. "No." Surprised by his reply i raise my eyebrow.
"What?"
"You heard. I said no." Mark lays back down under the duvet fixing his eyes onto the ceiling. Is he having a laugh?
"What do you mean 'no'? She's the carrier of our baby Mark! Do you really think i'm gonna have an affair with her? Is that what you think of me?" Feeling incredibly hurt i bite my lip a little holding back my tears. How dare he accuse me about this?
"No...i don't think that. Well not something you'd do, but she would. I can see it coming. Yasmin moves in with us bringing Eleanor with her. Robbie fucks off with that other woman leaving a poor helpless single Mum with two men. One being the man she had an affair with a year ago she's carrying his and his partner's baby, and this time next year i'll be waving you off! Loosing you again! Do you know how much this is hurting me Gary??!" Breathing faster Mark can't bring his eyes to look at me any longer.
We sit in silence for a few minutes. "Woah..." I finally break the silence. "I didn't think you thought of me like that... why did you even have the idea of asking her if you think all that?" Shaking my head annoyed i reach for my dressing gown.
"Not you! I don't mean you for fucks sake Gary." Mark snaps loudly whilst a few tears come streaming down his face. "Please don't go..."
Guilt swirls around my stomach causing me to sit back onto the bed resting my hand against his shoulder. "Where's all this coming from babe...ay?" Using my thumb i wipe away his tears.
"I've lost you once... back when the band split...i can't loose you again Gaz... i just can't... she can't take you away from me..." He stutters a little from his flooding tears. His floppy fringe covering his eyes hiding the tears. I can't believe how selfish i've been not putting my own boyfriend's feelings first. Asking how he felt about my decisions.
"She won't take me away from you...ever... it's just you...me...and our baby..." Planting kisses onto his shoulder. "I mean that. No one will."
"Promise? Swear you'll never leave me?"
"I promise Mark..."
A very faint smile appears on his face. "I've got a present for you..." He reaches into the bedside drawer.
"Ooooh...i love surprises." I sit waiting grinning like a child. I wonder what it could be... ?
"What are you talking about babe?" Robbie laughs a little stroking her arm. "How did it go?"
Bowing her head a little she sighs. "That perfume...it isn't mine... Where have you been?"
"I...I went shopping? I told you. Maybe I tried a few perfume samples for you, but now I guess that isn't a surprise anymore.." He shakes his head a little holding her hands. None of us believe him, but for now Yasmin holds it back.
"Oh...ok.." Forcefully she smiles. "Can we go home? I'm knackered..."
Placing a kiss onto her forehead he agrees. We say our goodbyes watching them leave the hospital.
"Wow.." Mark rubs his forehead once they've left. "Did she actually believe him?"
"No...course not...you could read her face...she knows exactly what he's up to, but she doesn't want to loose him." Releasing a deep sigh I can't help but feel guilty.
"Hey...this isn't your fault Gaz...you're not involved at all." He rubs my back comforting me.
"But what if this is all down to revenge? She cheated and now he's doing it?"
"That was a year ago and if that is the case then he's a very stupid man...come on let's get home I'll do us dinner." Gently he pecks me on the cheek whilst we make our way back to the car.
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"Babe I'm going for a quick run." I walk towards the kitchen wearing my grey tracksuit.
"Now? I'm about to start dinner?" He stops the dinner preparation looking at me in a worried manner.
"Yeah...I need to clear my head that's all...I'm be 10 minutes max..." Staring into those deep blue misted eyes sensing his worry, fighting his worry Mark agrees to let me go anyway.
"Be careful...love you." Tasting his lips on mine as he gives me a quick kiss.
"I will babe. Love you too."
The run isn't really a 'run' its more of a jog whilst getting lost in my own world. Yasmin doesn't need this stress from Robbie especially now that she could be pregnant again, and I'll do everything I can to protect the baby. Within 5 minutes of being on my run I hatch up a plan. Perfect. She'll come and live with me...and Mark. At least this way she will be stress free and no longer caught up in Robbie's games, but now its just Mark to lower his protective guard over me. The guard of letting a good looking woman around the house without questions and worry about the pair of us being left alone together at some point. Of course nothing will happen between me and Yasmin...although she might be carrying my baby or the baby which will be part of me now we will grow closer to one another. I just need Mark on my side. With a cheeky glare I decide to end my run a little early heading back to our house. I'll seduce him.
Very quietly I enter our house pulling down the door handle whilst closing the door, so it makes no sound. I remove my trainers leaving them beside the door before I start to slide on the laminate flooring towards the kitchen. Mark's cutting some vegetables up with his back facing me whilst he softly hums and mumbles some tune. 'Dear darlin' by Olly Murs?' Biting my lip preventing my heavy breathing from my run to be heard I make my way over to him. Sliding my arms around his waist as I nuzzle my face against his neck. He flinches almost chopping off one of his fingers. "Fucking hell Gary!" Mark cries out tossing the knife into the sink. "You almost chopped me bloody hand off!" Trying to release my grip on him he tries his best to escape my embrace to give me a good telling off, but its no use. What chance does this man have putting up a fight with a man like me?
Planting a few kisses on his neck and jaw line Mark finally surrenders rocking backwards into my arms, as we just stand together with Mark neatly wrapped in my arms. "Bastard. How did the run go?"
"S'okay." I mutter against his neck allowing my lips to vibrate against his now slightly damp neck. Stretching my arms down to his thighs then moving around to his backside giving his pert little arse a squeeze. "Blimey Gaz.." Mark chuckles hovering his hands behind his back stroking my torso through the thin fabric of my tight t shirt. "What have you eaten today?!" His hands soon remove from my torso and now more towards my crotch.
"Nothing...but I'm about to eat you." A breathly growl leaves my parted lips as my tongue swirls around his pulse point in his neck.
"If its not food which has made you horny? What has?" He questions feeling me getting harder by the second in my joggers. "Hello Gary...or should I say little Gary." Hiccuping through his laughs he strokes his palm a little harder against my hard forming bulge.
"You...you're the cause." Feeling the way I am I could take him right here right now in the kitchen, but the bedroom seems to be more appetizing. Entwining my fingers with his bucking my hips with one spin he now stands facing me.
Not wasting any time I plunge my tongue to the back of his throat exploring his mouth. Mark strokes my sides gripping either side of my hips pulling me closer to him, so his back is now firmly pushed against the worktop. Our kissing begins hungry crashing our tongues against one anothers as our mouths work in sync."You're... so... hard..." A grunt leaves Mark's lips whilst he looks towards his stomach which my erection is pressing against.
"Come." Taking a tight grip to his hand I drag him away from the kitchen to the direction of the hallway forcefully pushing him up against the wall before he takes the first step on the stairs. "Oh Mark..." Loudly I moan clawing at his clothes tossing them behind me into a heap. Once the smaller male is completely naked standing in front of me I don't hesitate to swing my arm over his back whilst scooping the other under his legs.
"Gaaaazz!" Mark almost chokes playfully hitting his hand against the side of my head. Worried in case I drop him on our journey to the bedroom. Securing my grip around his waist as I slowly walk upstairs making contact with his lips again. "Oh Gary..." He mumbles wrapping his arms around the back of my neck. I kick open the bedroom door once we reach our bedroom before gently placing him down onto the bed. His hand runs against the side of my cheek admiring me hoovering above his face. Without breaking away eye contact i take a few steps away from the bed removing my clothes. One item at a time teasing Mark making it unbearable for him to last any longer not having his hands somewhere on my flesh. "Fuck me already." Arching his back allowing his head to sink into his pillow. He can't hold it back anymore he wants me... and he wants me now.
Standing naked in the middle of the bedroom i finally crawl back onto the bed sucking onto Mark's lips whilst i secure myself with a condom. "Turn over..." My teeth sink into his neck as he quickly obeys my instructions now laying flat on his stomach. Positioning myself against him using a single finger which i run down from his neck hair to the bottom of his back brushing away any of his sweat droplets which have formed.
"Ready?" I ask breathing faster much more than i was before. A single nod of his head is all he replies with as i slowly bury myself deep inside of him.
"Aaaah shit... Gary...." A muffled voice moans against the pillow. Starting slow and steady i begin to make a rhythm of thrusts inside of Mark driving us both insane. Surprisingly he begins pushing his hips backwards allowing me to go even deeper.
"Oh...babe...you feel...so so...good..." I pant heavy gripping tight to his hips using them as a steady guide whilst i explore Mark.
"F...Faster...please...." Is all Mark mumbles squeezing tighter to the duvet. Doing as he says i decide to pick up the pace. Slamming harder into him sending us both over the edge.
"F...fuck..." Releasing a deep throaty groan continuing to pound deep into Mark bringing my hands into action, as i begin to slap his backside in time with my thrusts.
"G....G...Gary...I...." Mark warns me feeling his body start shake under my touch. He's close. We both are. With all my remaining energy going as fast as i possible can causing us both to finally fall over the edge shooting over loads practically everywhere. Our sweating bodies making even closer contact as i fall into a heap ontop of Mark.
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"Well....that was fucking great." Mark chuckles wrapping his naked body under the silk covers. "Maybe you should go for a run everyday if you're gonna treat me like that." He nudges me in the ribs giving me a cheeky wink. The words leaving his mouth completely goes over my head whilst i lay in my own little world thinking about what i decided during my run. "Oi... Barlow? What is it?" Bringing his head up from the duvet he rests chin on his fist.
"Oh er...nothing really...."
"Babe... tell me..." His voice turns into a more serious tone now.
Slowly bringing my eyes to meet his i take a deep breath. "I was thinking...that....er...Yasmin...should...move in?"
Mark's face remains blank. He blinks a few times absorbing my words. "No." Surprised by his reply i raise my eyebrow.
"What?"
"You heard. I said no." Mark lays back down under the duvet fixing his eyes onto the ceiling. Is he having a laugh?
"What do you mean 'no'? She's the carrier of our baby Mark! Do you really think i'm gonna have an affair with her? Is that what you think of me?" Feeling incredibly hurt i bite my lip a little holding back my tears. How dare he accuse me about this?
"No...i don't think that. Well not something you'd do, but she would. I can see it coming. Yasmin moves in with us bringing Eleanor with her. Robbie fucks off with that other woman leaving a poor helpless single Mum with two men. One being the man she had an affair with a year ago she's carrying his and his partner's baby, and this time next year i'll be waving you off! Loosing you again! Do you know how much this is hurting me Gary??!" Breathing faster Mark can't bring his eyes to look at me any longer.
We sit in silence for a few minutes. "Woah..." I finally break the silence. "I didn't think you thought of me like that... why did you even have the idea of asking her if you think all that?" Shaking my head annoyed i reach for my dressing gown.
"Not you! I don't mean you for fucks sake Gary." Mark snaps loudly whilst a few tears come streaming down his face. "Please don't go..."
Guilt swirls around my stomach causing me to sit back onto the bed resting my hand against his shoulder. "Where's all this coming from babe...ay?" Using my thumb i wipe away his tears.
"I've lost you once... back when the band split...i can't loose you again Gaz... i just can't... she can't take you away from me..." He stutters a little from his flooding tears. His floppy fringe covering his eyes hiding the tears. I can't believe how selfish i've been not putting my own boyfriend's feelings first. Asking how he felt about my decisions.
"She won't take me away from you...ever... it's just you...me...and our baby..." Planting kisses onto his shoulder. "I mean that. No one will."
"Promise? Swear you'll never leave me?"
"I promise Mark..."
A very faint smile appears on his face. "I've got a present for you..." He reaches into the bedside drawer.
"Ooooh...i love surprises." I sit waiting grinning like a child. I wonder what it could be... ?
Monday, 23 September 2013
Chapter 9
Gary's POV
"Gary! Come on we're gonna be late." Mark calls from the hallway whilst i'm brushing my teeth. My eyes glance over at my watch.
"Babe we've got another hour yet." Speaking with a mouthful of foamy water before spitting it into the sink.
"It's a 30 minute drive and with your driving we will be late."
Wiping away any toothpaste from around my mouth with the back of my hand i poke my head around the door. "Watcha mean by that?"
"You're slow." Mark grins slipping on his black leather coat waiting for me to come down in the hallway.
Cheekily i grin whilst walking down the stairs. "You've never complained before." I wink at him as i embrace him into a tight hug.
"Ay don't mess up me hair Gaz." Mark chuckles returning the hug.
Slowly i pull away a little looking at that sweet perfect face of his. "I wont... messy hair is for the bedroom only..."
He giggles a little raising his eyebrows. "I say Mr Barlow....someones certainly in the mood for it today."
"Well we need to celebrate after today...right? And that's a way baby's are made...we might as do our 'practise'"
Mark almost chokes on his tongue. "Erm...c...can't wait..." His cheeks get a little flushed. Very gently i press my lips against his ear.
"Once we're home... i'm going to push up against this wall ripping at your clothes until they're on the floor... then i'm going to carry you upstairs... dragging my tongue over every inch of your body....before burying myself deep inside of you...." Carefully i move his scarf aside placing a soft kiss against his neck. Mark blinks his eyes a few times from my words.
"Jeez..." He mumbles staring at me for a minute or two.
Smiling pleased with myself i slip on my coat taking his hand in mine. "Come on... we've got an appointment to get to."
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We wait for Robbie and Yasmin to arrive at the clinic. Mark paces the corridor sighing a little looking for them. "Where are they?"
"Babe. It's only five past sit down." Softly i smile patting the empty plastic chair beside me.
Mark sits next to me allowing the back of his head to the touch the wall. "What if she's changed her mind?"
"Hey...don't say that... she would of texted." I swirl my finger around his knee trying to comfort him. Mark can be such a worrier sometimes which creates more problems than what it's worth.
"But what if Ro-" Not letting him finish his sentence forcefully i push our lips together giving him a deep kiss. The sound of someone cough causes us to break away and look up. There stands Robbie by himself with a blank expression on his face.
"O...oh hiya Rob..." Mark gives him a friendly smile. "Where's Yasmin?"
Not once does Robbie look at me. It's almost like i don't exist! "She's talking to a friend of hers. She'll be here in a minute."
"Ok...take a seat?" The only seat which is spare is the one next to me. Great. This is going to be so awkward.
Robbie looks at the seat next to me noticing its the only one. "Nah i'm ok we'll be going in soon." How childish can you get?
"Hello Daddies!" Out of nowhere a grinning Yasmin arrives. Instantly two huge grins appear on mine and Mark's faces.
"Finally!" Mark giggles and gives her a kiss on the cheek. "Thought you wasn't coming."
She smiles a little and kisses my cheek. "Was you getting worried?"
"I was a litt-"
"He was a lot." I laugh a little looking at Mark who blushes slightly. "Here sit down." Politely i stand up giving up my seat for Yasmin to sit down whilst we wait for our appointment.
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Robbie's POV
"Yasmin Williams?" A nurse calls looking out of the door opposite us. We all go to stand up walking to the direction of the door. "Sorry gents, but we only need Yasmin. You two need to go to the other room where another doctor will talk you through the process." She points to Gary and Mark as Yasmin disappears inside the room.
"Catch you later Rob." Mark pats my arm grinning as per as he takes hold of Gary's hand.
"Yeah. See ya." I sit down on one of the empty seats. I'm still against this, but she's my wife of course i've got to support her. Although the main reason i'm against it is Gary. The man who had an affair with my wife and now he's going to be sort of having a baby with her. To be honest i wouldn't be surprised if he wanted to make the baby the natural way it wouldn't be new to him! Twat.
This is going to take forever i'm going to be sat here for hours. Thankfully before i go completely insane my phone starts to vibrate. (1) new message. - I miss you... come round? Softly i sigh before quickly typing a message back.
Reply: I can't. I'm at the hospital. I told you that. See you later. Why did i even bother coming if all i'm going to do is sit here getting bored out of my head. Another message comes through within a few seconds.
(1) new message.- I thought you couldn't use phones at hospitals? Are you seriously going through with it?
Reply: Yes. I'm going through with it, and i'm stuck sat out here waiting whilst dumb and dumber are in one room and she's in the other. There wasn't any point of me coming.
Feeling cramp in my legs i decide to take a stroll around the corridors. Peering through a few of the empty rooms keeping myself busy.
(1) new message.- Even more reason why you should come round... please? For a minute i stop and think. Maybe if i quickly go before they're finished non of them would notice that i went. Yeah why not? Sod it!
Reply: On my way. See you soon.
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Gary's POV
That took forever! The doctor had to do some tests on me and Mark checking if we are both healthy enough taking our samples for Yasmin. "Where's Rob?" Mark raises his eyebrow as we walk down to the corridor.
"Maybe he went inside with Yaz?" I stroke the top of his hand. Right now they're sorting Yasmin out with the whole IVF thing. This is all too exciting!
"When do we tell people?" Excitement spreads across Mark's face.
"What do you mean? Family already know?"
Mark nods. "Yeah i know that... i'm talking about our fans. When do we tell them?"
"I've got an idea." Quickly i reach into my pocket pulling out my phone fiddling with a few buttons typing a quick message.
"What are you doing?" He raises his eyebrow trying to look at my phone screen. Once i've typed the message i turn my phone to his direction.
"Shall i tweet it?" The message says. Attention fans ! There's some exciting news coming your way soon... watch this space ! "That should be a little teaser for them."
Mark playfully taps my arm. "Gaz don't be awful! That's teasing them too much." He chuckles.
"They'll love it." I hit the tweet button. Within a few seconds of tweeting it my phone goes mental with tweets.
"Now look what you've done." Mark shakes his head smiling. "When do we actually tell them?"
"Erm... well when we actually know the IVF has worked, because if it doesn't then... there's no point in saying we're going to have a baby...when we're not."
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Half an hour later and chatter sounds through the door opposite. They must be about finished. Running my hand through Mark's hair as he rests his head against my upper arm. It's been a long tiring day. Can't wait to finally get home and have an early night. A shadow appears at the door and out walks Yasmin. Softly she smiles at us both. "Right Mrs Williams the treatment went well, so we'll see you on October the 11th to do final tests and to see if you're pregnant." The nurse hands her a few leaflets. October the 11th?! That's exactly a month from today! We're going to find out if we're parents in a months time! Wow.
"Ok thank you... see you then." Yasmin looks knackered and she looks a little weaker than before it must of drained her being in there all that time. "Where's Rob?"She asks. Me and Mark look at one another confused. Looking around her into the empty room. He wasn't with her after all.
"We tho-" All of a sudden Robbie comes walking quickly to our direction. His face looks a little flushed, and it looks like he's been running seeing the build up of sweat on his forehead.
"Where have you been?" Yasmin looks at him raising her eyebrow.
Robbie wraps his arms around her waist. "S...Sorry babe...i erh...i went to the shops for a walk... had cramp."
Yasmin's face completely changes when Robbie holds her. "What's that smell?"
"Smell?" He asks trying to act calm as if he's trying to hide something. She moves her head to the direction of his chest inhaling the smell.
"P...Perfume? Where have you been?"
Not saying a word Mark looks down biting his lip. He's thinking exactly the same as me. He's been to see someone. Hasn't he?
"Gary! Come on we're gonna be late." Mark calls from the hallway whilst i'm brushing my teeth. My eyes glance over at my watch.
"Babe we've got another hour yet." Speaking with a mouthful of foamy water before spitting it into the sink.
"It's a 30 minute drive and with your driving we will be late."
Wiping away any toothpaste from around my mouth with the back of my hand i poke my head around the door. "Watcha mean by that?"
"You're slow." Mark grins slipping on his black leather coat waiting for me to come down in the hallway.
Cheekily i grin whilst walking down the stairs. "You've never complained before." I wink at him as i embrace him into a tight hug.
"Ay don't mess up me hair Gaz." Mark chuckles returning the hug.
Slowly i pull away a little looking at that sweet perfect face of his. "I wont... messy hair is for the bedroom only..."
He giggles a little raising his eyebrows. "I say Mr Barlow....someones certainly in the mood for it today."
"Well we need to celebrate after today...right? And that's a way baby's are made...we might as do our 'practise'"
Mark almost chokes on his tongue. "Erm...c...can't wait..." His cheeks get a little flushed. Very gently i press my lips against his ear.
"Once we're home... i'm going to push up against this wall ripping at your clothes until they're on the floor... then i'm going to carry you upstairs... dragging my tongue over every inch of your body....before burying myself deep inside of you...." Carefully i move his scarf aside placing a soft kiss against his neck. Mark blinks his eyes a few times from my words.
"Jeez..." He mumbles staring at me for a minute or two.
Smiling pleased with myself i slip on my coat taking his hand in mine. "Come on... we've got an appointment to get to."
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We wait for Robbie and Yasmin to arrive at the clinic. Mark paces the corridor sighing a little looking for them. "Where are they?"
"Babe. It's only five past sit down." Softly i smile patting the empty plastic chair beside me.
Mark sits next to me allowing the back of his head to the touch the wall. "What if she's changed her mind?"
"Hey...don't say that... she would of texted." I swirl my finger around his knee trying to comfort him. Mark can be such a worrier sometimes which creates more problems than what it's worth.
"But what if Ro-" Not letting him finish his sentence forcefully i push our lips together giving him a deep kiss. The sound of someone cough causes us to break away and look up. There stands Robbie by himself with a blank expression on his face.
"O...oh hiya Rob..." Mark gives him a friendly smile. "Where's Yasmin?"
Not once does Robbie look at me. It's almost like i don't exist! "She's talking to a friend of hers. She'll be here in a minute."
"Ok...take a seat?" The only seat which is spare is the one next to me. Great. This is going to be so awkward.
Robbie looks at the seat next to me noticing its the only one. "Nah i'm ok we'll be going in soon." How childish can you get?
"Hello Daddies!" Out of nowhere a grinning Yasmin arrives. Instantly two huge grins appear on mine and Mark's faces.
"Finally!" Mark giggles and gives her a kiss on the cheek. "Thought you wasn't coming."
She smiles a little and kisses my cheek. "Was you getting worried?"
"I was a litt-"
"He was a lot." I laugh a little looking at Mark who blushes slightly. "Here sit down." Politely i stand up giving up my seat for Yasmin to sit down whilst we wait for our appointment.
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Robbie's POV
"Yasmin Williams?" A nurse calls looking out of the door opposite us. We all go to stand up walking to the direction of the door. "Sorry gents, but we only need Yasmin. You two need to go to the other room where another doctor will talk you through the process." She points to Gary and Mark as Yasmin disappears inside the room.
"Catch you later Rob." Mark pats my arm grinning as per as he takes hold of Gary's hand.
"Yeah. See ya." I sit down on one of the empty seats. I'm still against this, but she's my wife of course i've got to support her. Although the main reason i'm against it is Gary. The man who had an affair with my wife and now he's going to be sort of having a baby with her. To be honest i wouldn't be surprised if he wanted to make the baby the natural way it wouldn't be new to him! Twat.
This is going to take forever i'm going to be sat here for hours. Thankfully before i go completely insane my phone starts to vibrate. (1) new message. - I miss you... come round? Softly i sigh before quickly typing a message back.
Reply: I can't. I'm at the hospital. I told you that. See you later. Why did i even bother coming if all i'm going to do is sit here getting bored out of my head. Another message comes through within a few seconds.
(1) new message.- I thought you couldn't use phones at hospitals? Are you seriously going through with it?
Reply: Yes. I'm going through with it, and i'm stuck sat out here waiting whilst dumb and dumber are in one room and she's in the other. There wasn't any point of me coming.
Feeling cramp in my legs i decide to take a stroll around the corridors. Peering through a few of the empty rooms keeping myself busy.
(1) new message.- Even more reason why you should come round... please? For a minute i stop and think. Maybe if i quickly go before they're finished non of them would notice that i went. Yeah why not? Sod it!
Reply: On my way. See you soon.
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Gary's POV
That took forever! The doctor had to do some tests on me and Mark checking if we are both healthy enough taking our samples for Yasmin. "Where's Rob?" Mark raises his eyebrow as we walk down to the corridor.
"Maybe he went inside with Yaz?" I stroke the top of his hand. Right now they're sorting Yasmin out with the whole IVF thing. This is all too exciting!
"When do we tell people?" Excitement spreads across Mark's face.
"What do you mean? Family already know?"
Mark nods. "Yeah i know that... i'm talking about our fans. When do we tell them?"
"I've got an idea." Quickly i reach into my pocket pulling out my phone fiddling with a few buttons typing a quick message.
"What are you doing?" He raises his eyebrow trying to look at my phone screen. Once i've typed the message i turn my phone to his direction.
"Shall i tweet it?" The message says. Attention fans ! There's some exciting news coming your way soon... watch this space ! "That should be a little teaser for them."
Mark playfully taps my arm. "Gaz don't be awful! That's teasing them too much." He chuckles.
"They'll love it." I hit the tweet button. Within a few seconds of tweeting it my phone goes mental with tweets.
"Now look what you've done." Mark shakes his head smiling. "When do we actually tell them?"
"Erm... well when we actually know the IVF has worked, because if it doesn't then... there's no point in saying we're going to have a baby...when we're not."
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Half an hour later and chatter sounds through the door opposite. They must be about finished. Running my hand through Mark's hair as he rests his head against my upper arm. It's been a long tiring day. Can't wait to finally get home and have an early night. A shadow appears at the door and out walks Yasmin. Softly she smiles at us both. "Right Mrs Williams the treatment went well, so we'll see you on October the 11th to do final tests and to see if you're pregnant." The nurse hands her a few leaflets. October the 11th?! That's exactly a month from today! We're going to find out if we're parents in a months time! Wow.
"Ok thank you... see you then." Yasmin looks knackered and she looks a little weaker than before it must of drained her being in there all that time. "Where's Rob?"She asks. Me and Mark look at one another confused. Looking around her into the empty room. He wasn't with her after all.
"We tho-" All of a sudden Robbie comes walking quickly to our direction. His face looks a little flushed, and it looks like he's been running seeing the build up of sweat on his forehead.
"Where have you been?" Yasmin looks at him raising her eyebrow.
Robbie wraps his arms around her waist. "S...Sorry babe...i erh...i went to the shops for a walk... had cramp."
Yasmin's face completely changes when Robbie holds her. "What's that smell?"
"Smell?" He asks trying to act calm as if he's trying to hide something. She moves her head to the direction of his chest inhaling the smell.
"P...Perfume? Where have you been?"
Not saying a word Mark looks down biting his lip. He's thinking exactly the same as me. He's been to see someone. Hasn't he?
Tuesday, 17 September 2013
Chapter 8
Yasmin's POV
The sound of footsteps getting closer causes me to quickly get into bed. Wrapping the duvet up to my chin and closing my eyes. The door comes out feeling Robbie's presence enter the room. "Don't play games Yasmin." Robbie snaps loudly closing the door behind him. Very slowly I open my eyes enough for me to see his dark figure standing in front me. "What the hell have you done?!" Why is he acting like I've committed a crime or something?
"Have you heard yourself?? I'm doing this for two amazing friends of ours who want to become parents...what a beautiful thing....and you're making it sound like god knows what. Get a grip of yourself Robbie."
Narrowing his eyebrows he shakes his head at me. "We haven't even spoken about and you've made a decision?! Are we a couple or not? For gods sake Yasmin you're not going to get anything out of it apart from a couple of 'thank yous' you're going to go through all that to have the baby taken from you will you be able to cope? IVF is risky you do know that right?"
Tears burn in my eyes. I want Mark and Gary to enjoy the happiness of becoming parents its a wonderful feeling and if I can play a part in helping their dream come true then its a risk I'm going to take. "Yes. Like I said its my body, and as my husband you should at least respect my decision and support me. If not. There's the door." My breathing becomes a little shaky. Seriously I'm just pushing him away to the other woman. He's going to run any second into her arms.
For a few seconds Robbie stands there incomplete thought. He tilts his head backwards and closes his eyes before giving out a quiet sigh. "Ok. I'll be there..." He rubs his forehead. "I'll...support your decision...doesn't mean I'm happy with it...but as your husband I'll respect your choice." My eyes widen by his words not expecting to hear those words leave his lips.
"R...Really?"
Robbie nods. "Yeah...but remember what I said about everything...you're gonna grow attached...seeing as you're the carrier, but this will be Mark and Gary's baby not ours. Eleanor is ours, so don't go telling people that its a brother or sister for her. Don't hide it away tell the truth seeing as you're all for it you will tell people exactly what you're doing without getting embarrassed or whatever. I agree it is a good thing you're doing...sometimes you're too kind, but that's just you." He sighs. "When are you thinking of going?"
Absorbing everything he's said he's right it will be hard after getting attached, but at least I still have Eleanor...and hopefully Robbie to get me through it. "Erm...W..Wednesday."
"Wednesday??" Robbie looks a little shocked. "This coming Wednesday?!"
Words fail to leave my lips looking at his face expression. "Uh...huh.."
"B...but that's only 5 days away...really? Do Mark and Gary even know?"
Playing with the duvet a little to hide my nerves. His reactions are making me even more nervous. "No not yet...I was going to ring them tomorrow after booking an appointment...that's the day Emily's coming round, so I was going to ask her to babysit Eleanor whilst we all go." Emily is a friend of my side of the family. She's an ex nurse so she has experience with children. I only leave my daughter with someone I put full trust into.
"R...right ok..." Robbie pulls out his phone and starts to text someone. My eyes glance over at his phone which he pulls from my view.
"W..who are you texting?"
He continues typing the message not looking up from the screen. "Erm...I was er...going to go into Abbey Road studio that day...so I just told them I'll make it another day." Quickly he puts his phone back into his pocket. Liar. He was texting her wasn't he..? "O...oh...okay..." Swallowing hard I allow my head to sink into my pillow. This pains me keeping it inside, but I need him that's why I can't confront him. Not yet anyway.
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(The next morning)
Gary's POV
"What about Jake?" Mark asks whilst crunching his cereal at the breakfast table. Squinting my eyes a little I think for a second or two.
"Jake's a bit common isn't it? What about Jacob?"
"Jacob Colin? Hmmm....erm.... What about Billy?" Both of us look at one another and giggle a little.
"Sounds like an old singer does that lad...erm...Ryan?" I sip my coffee whilst watching Mark eat.
He nods slowly. "Ryan...? I like Ryan...erm..What about something different....Kalem?"
"Haven't heard Kalem before... But Kalem Colin doesn't really go together babe..?" Frowning my lips a little. "This is harder than I thought...Lucas?" We both shake our heads disagreeing. We're going to be here all day thinking of names. We haven't even set a date when we are actually going in for the appointment. "We've still got the girl names to think of soon too."
"Hmmm..." Mark scratches his chin. "Thomas?" Silence fills the room for a couple of seconds.
"Thomas Colin... I like that..." My eyes light up. "I really like the name Thomas....little Tommy...awww..."Mark stares a little with the spoon slightly pressed against his lips not saying a word. "Babe? Are you ok?" Gently i tap the top of his hand.
He shakes his head a little. "Oh yeah...yeah i'm fine... was just thinking..."
"What abo-" My phone buzzing interrupts me. (1) new message - Yaz.
Mark lifts his head a little to look at the screen. "What's it say?" I click open the message whilst scanning it quickly. 'Hiya Gaz it's Yasmin. Me and Robbie have been speaking... and we've both decided to go ahead with carrying the baby for you and Mark. I've booked an appointment for this coming Wednesday make sure you are both free and we'll meet you at the clinic... see you Daddies soon x'
Swallowing hard trying to keep the tears in i re read the message in my head several times. Is this real? "Gary? Gaz what is it? Talk to me?" Mark looks concerned taking my hands in his whilst his eyes search for an answer on my face. Without saying anything i hand him the mobile let him read for himself. Still looked concerned Mark takes the mobile and starts to read. "O...oh...oh....wow...oh god..." His voice trembles and strokes his eyes. Biting my lip i get out from my seat kneeling in front of him.
"It's real....we're going to be parents..." Tears come streaming down my face whilst looking up at Mark who's face is dripping from tears.
"Oh Gary..." He tightly wraps his arms around the back of my neck as we both happily sob together.
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I sit in my studio upstairs trying some new medleys on my piano. Maybe I shouldn't start a solo album at the minute there's so much going off in my life right now, but at least I should try and write a single? "Knock knock." Mark pokes his head around the door grinning.
"Hiya handsome." I smile looking over my left shoulder as Mark makes his way inside.
"Don't work too hard babe." Gently he kisses me on the forehead.
"I know..I know...I'm just trying to think of new stuff for me new material...harder than I thought....especially with babies on my mind." Laughing a little whilst I continue pressing random notes.
Mark walks around to the front of the piano leaning his elbows on the top looking at me just like he did on the Ultimate tour during 'A million love songs.' "You'll think of something...you're a musical genius."
A light shade of red appears on my cheeks. "Oh don't..."
Mark continues to stare at me watching me make up different medley's. "Play me something?" He finally speaks.
"What do you mean? These are only random notes." Taking my hands from the keys I look into his love filled eyes.
"I mean...a song...something from your previous solo career...play me one which reminds you of me..." Shyly he smiles at me. Biting my lip a little I think for a second of a song piecing lyrics together which are suiting to Mark. All of a sudden it hits me. Perfect! My hands reach towards the keys again as I begin playing soft slow notes.
"I haven't done this one in years, so please forgive me if I get it wrong."
Excitedly Mark nods his hands placed either side of his cheeks watching my fingers find the right keys.
Gently I clear my throat before I start singing the same time as playing the piano with my eyes fixed onto Mark's. "I'm sure that you've heard this before so many times...yeah...'Mark' look inside my heart and you will find...you will find your superhero...I'll be the one to hold you...I'll never let you go....I'll always understand you baby....to be your superhero....for all that you want for all that you're feeling. There's a place where you can go for all that you need I will be waiting to be your superhero...I will be waiting....to be your...superhero...." Once i've finished i bring my eyes up to meet his again. His face is blank maybe he didn't enjoy it? "Sorry...i guess my solo songs aren't what i thought they were..." Mark still doesn't say anything he walks around the piano so he's standing in front of me. "Mark? Are yo-" His lips press very softly against mine. When we break away our foreheads rest against one anothers. Mark looks at me whilst kneeling taking my hands in his placing a soft kiss on the top.
"That was just perfect...no one has ever done that before... i love you so much Gary...never leave me..." He places another kiss on my hand. "Ever...."
Softly i whisper nuzzling my nose into his hair breathing in his scent. "Never....ever...i promise..."
"Bring on Wednesday...." His hand strokes the top of me knee whilst we remain in the same position.
"Can't wait baby..."
The sound of footsteps getting closer causes me to quickly get into bed. Wrapping the duvet up to my chin and closing my eyes. The door comes out feeling Robbie's presence enter the room. "Don't play games Yasmin." Robbie snaps loudly closing the door behind him. Very slowly I open my eyes enough for me to see his dark figure standing in front me. "What the hell have you done?!" Why is he acting like I've committed a crime or something?
"Have you heard yourself?? I'm doing this for two amazing friends of ours who want to become parents...what a beautiful thing....and you're making it sound like god knows what. Get a grip of yourself Robbie."
Narrowing his eyebrows he shakes his head at me. "We haven't even spoken about and you've made a decision?! Are we a couple or not? For gods sake Yasmin you're not going to get anything out of it apart from a couple of 'thank yous' you're going to go through all that to have the baby taken from you will you be able to cope? IVF is risky you do know that right?"
Tears burn in my eyes. I want Mark and Gary to enjoy the happiness of becoming parents its a wonderful feeling and if I can play a part in helping their dream come true then its a risk I'm going to take. "Yes. Like I said its my body, and as my husband you should at least respect my decision and support me. If not. There's the door." My breathing becomes a little shaky. Seriously I'm just pushing him away to the other woman. He's going to run any second into her arms.
For a few seconds Robbie stands there incomplete thought. He tilts his head backwards and closes his eyes before giving out a quiet sigh. "Ok. I'll be there..." He rubs his forehead. "I'll...support your decision...doesn't mean I'm happy with it...but as your husband I'll respect your choice." My eyes widen by his words not expecting to hear those words leave his lips.
"R...Really?"
Robbie nods. "Yeah...but remember what I said about everything...you're gonna grow attached...seeing as you're the carrier, but this will be Mark and Gary's baby not ours. Eleanor is ours, so don't go telling people that its a brother or sister for her. Don't hide it away tell the truth seeing as you're all for it you will tell people exactly what you're doing without getting embarrassed or whatever. I agree it is a good thing you're doing...sometimes you're too kind, but that's just you." He sighs. "When are you thinking of going?"
Absorbing everything he's said he's right it will be hard after getting attached, but at least I still have Eleanor...and hopefully Robbie to get me through it. "Erm...W..Wednesday."
"Wednesday??" Robbie looks a little shocked. "This coming Wednesday?!"
Words fail to leave my lips looking at his face expression. "Uh...huh.."
"B...but that's only 5 days away...really? Do Mark and Gary even know?"
Playing with the duvet a little to hide my nerves. His reactions are making me even more nervous. "No not yet...I was going to ring them tomorrow after booking an appointment...that's the day Emily's coming round, so I was going to ask her to babysit Eleanor whilst we all go." Emily is a friend of my side of the family. She's an ex nurse so she has experience with children. I only leave my daughter with someone I put full trust into.
"R...right ok..." Robbie pulls out his phone and starts to text someone. My eyes glance over at his phone which he pulls from my view.
"W..who are you texting?"
He continues typing the message not looking up from the screen. "Erm...I was er...going to go into Abbey Road studio that day...so I just told them I'll make it another day." Quickly he puts his phone back into his pocket. Liar. He was texting her wasn't he..? "O...oh...okay..." Swallowing hard I allow my head to sink into my pillow. This pains me keeping it inside, but I need him that's why I can't confront him. Not yet anyway.
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(The next morning)
Gary's POV
"What about Jake?" Mark asks whilst crunching his cereal at the breakfast table. Squinting my eyes a little I think for a second or two.
"Jake's a bit common isn't it? What about Jacob?"
"Jacob Colin? Hmmm....erm.... What about Billy?" Both of us look at one another and giggle a little.
"Sounds like an old singer does that lad...erm...Ryan?" I sip my coffee whilst watching Mark eat.
He nods slowly. "Ryan...? I like Ryan...erm..What about something different....Kalem?"
"Haven't heard Kalem before... But Kalem Colin doesn't really go together babe..?" Frowning my lips a little. "This is harder than I thought...Lucas?" We both shake our heads disagreeing. We're going to be here all day thinking of names. We haven't even set a date when we are actually going in for the appointment. "We've still got the girl names to think of soon too."
"Hmmm..." Mark scratches his chin. "Thomas?" Silence fills the room for a couple of seconds.
"Thomas Colin... I like that..." My eyes light up. "I really like the name Thomas....little Tommy...awww..."Mark stares a little with the spoon slightly pressed against his lips not saying a word. "Babe? Are you ok?" Gently i tap the top of his hand.
He shakes his head a little. "Oh yeah...yeah i'm fine... was just thinking..."
"What abo-" My phone buzzing interrupts me. (1) new message - Yaz.
Mark lifts his head a little to look at the screen. "What's it say?" I click open the message whilst scanning it quickly. 'Hiya Gaz it's Yasmin. Me and Robbie have been speaking... and we've both decided to go ahead with carrying the baby for you and Mark. I've booked an appointment for this coming Wednesday make sure you are both free and we'll meet you at the clinic... see you Daddies soon x'
Swallowing hard trying to keep the tears in i re read the message in my head several times. Is this real? "Gary? Gaz what is it? Talk to me?" Mark looks concerned taking my hands in his whilst his eyes search for an answer on my face. Without saying anything i hand him the mobile let him read for himself. Still looked concerned Mark takes the mobile and starts to read. "O...oh...oh....wow...oh god..." His voice trembles and strokes his eyes. Biting my lip i get out from my seat kneeling in front of him.
"It's real....we're going to be parents..." Tears come streaming down my face whilst looking up at Mark who's face is dripping from tears.
"Oh Gary..." He tightly wraps his arms around the back of my neck as we both happily sob together.
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I sit in my studio upstairs trying some new medleys on my piano. Maybe I shouldn't start a solo album at the minute there's so much going off in my life right now, but at least I should try and write a single? "Knock knock." Mark pokes his head around the door grinning.
"Hiya handsome." I smile looking over my left shoulder as Mark makes his way inside.
"Don't work too hard babe." Gently he kisses me on the forehead.
"I know..I know...I'm just trying to think of new stuff for me new material...harder than I thought....especially with babies on my mind." Laughing a little whilst I continue pressing random notes.
Mark walks around to the front of the piano leaning his elbows on the top looking at me just like he did on the Ultimate tour during 'A million love songs.' "You'll think of something...you're a musical genius."
A light shade of red appears on my cheeks. "Oh don't..."
Mark continues to stare at me watching me make up different medley's. "Play me something?" He finally speaks.
"What do you mean? These are only random notes." Taking my hands from the keys I look into his love filled eyes.
"I mean...a song...something from your previous solo career...play me one which reminds you of me..." Shyly he smiles at me. Biting my lip a little I think for a second of a song piecing lyrics together which are suiting to Mark. All of a sudden it hits me. Perfect! My hands reach towards the keys again as I begin playing soft slow notes.
"I haven't done this one in years, so please forgive me if I get it wrong."
Excitedly Mark nods his hands placed either side of his cheeks watching my fingers find the right keys.
Gently I clear my throat before I start singing the same time as playing the piano with my eyes fixed onto Mark's. "I'm sure that you've heard this before so many times...yeah...'Mark' look inside my heart and you will find...you will find your superhero...I'll be the one to hold you...I'll never let you go....I'll always understand you baby....to be your superhero....for all that you want for all that you're feeling. There's a place where you can go for all that you need I will be waiting to be your superhero...I will be waiting....to be your...superhero...." Once i've finished i bring my eyes up to meet his again. His face is blank maybe he didn't enjoy it? "Sorry...i guess my solo songs aren't what i thought they were..." Mark still doesn't say anything he walks around the piano so he's standing in front of me. "Mark? Are yo-" His lips press very softly against mine. When we break away our foreheads rest against one anothers. Mark looks at me whilst kneeling taking my hands in his placing a soft kiss on the top.
"That was just perfect...no one has ever done that before... i love you so much Gary...never leave me..." He places another kiss on my hand. "Ever...."
Softly i whisper nuzzling my nose into his hair breathing in his scent. "Never....ever...i promise..."
"Bring on Wednesday...." His hand strokes the top of me knee whilst we remain in the same position.
"Can't wait baby..."
Sunday, 15 September 2013
Chapter 7
Gary's POV
"Excuse me?" Robbie takes a few steps towards Yasmin completely baffled by her words. Mark's hand is still slightly covering his mouth blood continues to drip whilst his are eyes looking into mine. Everyone feels shocked by Yasmin's agreement.
"I said yes... i'm going to carry their baby..." She takes a deep breathe looking at me and Mark standing near the doorway.
"Woah woah hold up a sec! Are we not going to discuss this??" Robbie frowns at Yasmin taking her by the arm so she looks at him.
For a few seconds she turns round again looking at us. Not saying a word we both look back at her. Straight away i can tell what she's thinking even though she's not saying it. "It's my body Robbie. They're our friends who have come to US for help. I'm doing this with or without you. See you later guys and i'm sorry for what happened tonight...we'll talk in the next few days." She takes a look at Robbie then disappears upstairs. Awkwardly me and Mark still stand in the hallway near the door whilst Robbie is left shocked opposite us. He takes a long look at us both before going upstairs after Yasmin. "Let's go Gaz..." Mark tugs on my blood stained shirt. Nodding my head in agreement i help Mark into the car where we decide to head back home.
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"I'm gonna change me clothes Gaz... will you clean me up when i come back down please?" Mark asks still covering his mouth and nose. He's self conscious of himself sometimes especially if there's something he doesn't like about himself he'll try and cover it up.
"Of course babe... i best get changed too." We both walk upstairs to the bedroom, so we can get changed. Mark quickly goes into the bathroom carrying a pile of clothes. I can't believe Robbie punched him even if it was by mistake. No one hurts Mark no one. Resting my hands against my forehead i absorb everything which has happened tonight. Yasmin actually agreed to carrying mine and Mark's baby. Yet she hasn't even sat and spoke about it to Robbie. Right now i want to pack up a few suitcases and leave this country with Mark get away from everyone and everything, but we can't....not now anyway. Also i can't believe Robbie accused me of looking up Yasmin! How dare he? How dare he say that in front of Mark doesn't he understand how much it hurts Mark? We wasn't even dating, but to hear someone say things like that seriously??! He knows how much of a worrier Mark is what if he wont trust me? "Urgh!" Angrily i punch the bookshelve knocking down a pile of books.
"Gaz? What was that?" Mark calls from the bathroom. Trying to control my breathing i get on my hands and knees piling the books together.
"Books fell... that's all."
Once all the books are back on the shelves i start to remove my clothes. Grabbing a clean pair of boxers from my drawer and a t shirt from Mark's slipping them both on. "Everything ok?" A clean clothed Mark walks out from the bathroom carrying his clothes with blood on.
"Yeah? Why wouldn't it be? Lets go down so i can clean up that blood from your face." Before i get chance to walk downstairs Mark grabs my hand. "Huh?"
"You're wearing one of my shirts?" Softly Mark smiles. "I like that..."
"Oh yeah... erm... i usually wear them... like when you're not here... or when i need to relax... your scent helps..."
Mark grins hugely at me. "You're the sweetest man i know..."
"Hmm... uh huh... lets get you cleaned up." We walk back downstairs. I know i shouldn't be giving Mark the cold shoulder, but right now i don't know where my head's at. Mark sits down at the kitchen table whilst i grab a bowl of cold water and kitchen roll. "So...?" Softly he smiles whilst i dip some of the tissue into the water draining it off a little.
"Yep." Gently i dab the top of his lip wiping away the dried blood.
Mark frowns a little. "S'up? I thought you'd be happy? We're going have a baby Gaz?"
"Maybe." Pressing a little harder.
Worry fills Mark's eyes as i continue to wipe away the blood. "M...Maybe? Y...you...you don't want to?" His voice begins to tremble slightly.
Replacing the blood filled tissue with another i look away from his saddened eyes. I can't bare to see him sad, but i just want to know what he honestly thinks. "Do you really want to have a baby with a cheat? A liar? The man who apparently can't keep his eyes to himself? Ay?" Angrily i press even harder to Mark's bruised face.
"Gary stop. You're hurting me." Mark winces a little.
"Well answer me goddammit??! Tell me what you think of me! Call me a cheat like everyone else does!!" Breathing faster i throw the bowl of water across the kitchen causing it to smash loudly.
"STOP IT GARY JUST FUCKING STOP IT!" Mark shouts knocking me out of my trance stopping me in my actions. Tears fill Mark's eyes as he backs down in a timid way.
"Mark...i'm sorry... i'm so sorry... i don't know what came over me..." Feeling incredibly guilty i can't even look him in the eyes. I've scared him.
"Lets just go to bed...yeah?" Mark finally breaks the silence and walks upstairs. He hates me. I've done it this time. Why did i have to behave like a prick? Nervously i follow him to the bedroom.
"Mark? I'm sorry....did i hurt you?"
Gently he shakes his head whilst pulling back the duvet. "Not physically no."
"What do you mean?" I walk over standing at the bottom of the bed watching Mark get comfortable. He strokes his tried looking eyes with his palms.
"What hurts me is...that you're saying i don't trust you... when really you're the one who doesn't trust me..."
Confusion fills my face as i stare at the younger male in bed. "Huh? What do you mean? Of course i trust you.."
"Well believe me when i say you're not a cheat. That you're not a liar, and i full well know that you wouldn't look at Yasmin in that way again. All i wanted to do tonight is have a cuddle in bed talking about our future. Even have a little fun talking about baby names. Not argue, but i guess i was wrong. Again." Feeling hurt Mark turns over, so his back faces me. Understanding his words i decide to join him in bed. He's right... of course he's right. My arm wraps around his waist as i feel sorry for myself.
"You're right... i need to stop... bringing it all up... me bringing it up hurts you even more by reminding you...doesn't it?" Mark replies with just a nod his back still facing me. "I promise i'll stop... you have my word... and if i do it again... you can break one of my pedals...deal...?" Softly i smile against his shoulder.
"hmm...deal." Mark smiles a little turning his head to my direction. "They're always laying around...it'll be a pleasure."
Playfully i tap his arm. "Oi.... it's good to see that smile of yours again.... so baby names?"
"Lets think of boy names first....then tomorrow night girls....then boys again... then girls..." Cheekily Mark grins.
"Jeez... how many kids are we having?!"
"You know what i mean... what names were you thinking of? I was thinking maybe to name...if it's a boy have the middle name after your Dad...?"
Hearing those words instantly makes my heart melt. Mark knows how much my Dad meant to me before he passed away a couple years ago, and naming our child after him in spirit brings a tear to my eye. "Oh...Mark..." Tightly i wrap my arms around him.
"I love you so much Gary Barlow... and i can't wait to spend the rest of my life with you..." His hand strokes through my hair as he cuddles to my chest.
"I love you too Mark... a lot..."
"Excuse me?" Robbie takes a few steps towards Yasmin completely baffled by her words. Mark's hand is still slightly covering his mouth blood continues to drip whilst his are eyes looking into mine. Everyone feels shocked by Yasmin's agreement.
"I said yes... i'm going to carry their baby..." She takes a deep breathe looking at me and Mark standing near the doorway.
"Woah woah hold up a sec! Are we not going to discuss this??" Robbie frowns at Yasmin taking her by the arm so she looks at him.
For a few seconds she turns round again looking at us. Not saying a word we both look back at her. Straight away i can tell what she's thinking even though she's not saying it. "It's my body Robbie. They're our friends who have come to US for help. I'm doing this with or without you. See you later guys and i'm sorry for what happened tonight...we'll talk in the next few days." She takes a look at Robbie then disappears upstairs. Awkwardly me and Mark still stand in the hallway near the door whilst Robbie is left shocked opposite us. He takes a long look at us both before going upstairs after Yasmin. "Let's go Gaz..." Mark tugs on my blood stained shirt. Nodding my head in agreement i help Mark into the car where we decide to head back home.
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"I'm gonna change me clothes Gaz... will you clean me up when i come back down please?" Mark asks still covering his mouth and nose. He's self conscious of himself sometimes especially if there's something he doesn't like about himself he'll try and cover it up.
"Of course babe... i best get changed too." We both walk upstairs to the bedroom, so we can get changed. Mark quickly goes into the bathroom carrying a pile of clothes. I can't believe Robbie punched him even if it was by mistake. No one hurts Mark no one. Resting my hands against my forehead i absorb everything which has happened tonight. Yasmin actually agreed to carrying mine and Mark's baby. Yet she hasn't even sat and spoke about it to Robbie. Right now i want to pack up a few suitcases and leave this country with Mark get away from everyone and everything, but we can't....not now anyway. Also i can't believe Robbie accused me of looking up Yasmin! How dare he? How dare he say that in front of Mark doesn't he understand how much it hurts Mark? We wasn't even dating, but to hear someone say things like that seriously??! He knows how much of a worrier Mark is what if he wont trust me? "Urgh!" Angrily i punch the bookshelve knocking down a pile of books.
"Gaz? What was that?" Mark calls from the bathroom. Trying to control my breathing i get on my hands and knees piling the books together.
"Books fell... that's all."
Once all the books are back on the shelves i start to remove my clothes. Grabbing a clean pair of boxers from my drawer and a t shirt from Mark's slipping them both on. "Everything ok?" A clean clothed Mark walks out from the bathroom carrying his clothes with blood on.
"Yeah? Why wouldn't it be? Lets go down so i can clean up that blood from your face." Before i get chance to walk downstairs Mark grabs my hand. "Huh?"
"You're wearing one of my shirts?" Softly Mark smiles. "I like that..."
"Oh yeah... erm... i usually wear them... like when you're not here... or when i need to relax... your scent helps..."
Mark grins hugely at me. "You're the sweetest man i know..."
"Hmm... uh huh... lets get you cleaned up." We walk back downstairs. I know i shouldn't be giving Mark the cold shoulder, but right now i don't know where my head's at. Mark sits down at the kitchen table whilst i grab a bowl of cold water and kitchen roll. "So...?" Softly he smiles whilst i dip some of the tissue into the water draining it off a little.
"Yep." Gently i dab the top of his lip wiping away the dried blood.
Mark frowns a little. "S'up? I thought you'd be happy? We're going have a baby Gaz?"
"Maybe." Pressing a little harder.
Worry fills Mark's eyes as i continue to wipe away the blood. "M...Maybe? Y...you...you don't want to?" His voice begins to tremble slightly.
Replacing the blood filled tissue with another i look away from his saddened eyes. I can't bare to see him sad, but i just want to know what he honestly thinks. "Do you really want to have a baby with a cheat? A liar? The man who apparently can't keep his eyes to himself? Ay?" Angrily i press even harder to Mark's bruised face.
"Gary stop. You're hurting me." Mark winces a little.
"Well answer me goddammit??! Tell me what you think of me! Call me a cheat like everyone else does!!" Breathing faster i throw the bowl of water across the kitchen causing it to smash loudly.
"STOP IT GARY JUST FUCKING STOP IT!" Mark shouts knocking me out of my trance stopping me in my actions. Tears fill Mark's eyes as he backs down in a timid way.
"Mark...i'm sorry... i'm so sorry... i don't know what came over me..." Feeling incredibly guilty i can't even look him in the eyes. I've scared him.
"Lets just go to bed...yeah?" Mark finally breaks the silence and walks upstairs. He hates me. I've done it this time. Why did i have to behave like a prick? Nervously i follow him to the bedroom.
"Mark? I'm sorry....did i hurt you?"
Gently he shakes his head whilst pulling back the duvet. "Not physically no."
"What do you mean?" I walk over standing at the bottom of the bed watching Mark get comfortable. He strokes his tried looking eyes with his palms.
"What hurts me is...that you're saying i don't trust you... when really you're the one who doesn't trust me..."
Confusion fills my face as i stare at the younger male in bed. "Huh? What do you mean? Of course i trust you.."
"Well believe me when i say you're not a cheat. That you're not a liar, and i full well know that you wouldn't look at Yasmin in that way again. All i wanted to do tonight is have a cuddle in bed talking about our future. Even have a little fun talking about baby names. Not argue, but i guess i was wrong. Again." Feeling hurt Mark turns over, so his back faces me. Understanding his words i decide to join him in bed. He's right... of course he's right. My arm wraps around his waist as i feel sorry for myself.
"You're right... i need to stop... bringing it all up... me bringing it up hurts you even more by reminding you...doesn't it?" Mark replies with just a nod his back still facing me. "I promise i'll stop... you have my word... and if i do it again... you can break one of my pedals...deal...?" Softly i smile against his shoulder.
"hmm...deal." Mark smiles a little turning his head to my direction. "They're always laying around...it'll be a pleasure."
Playfully i tap his arm. "Oi.... it's good to see that smile of yours again.... so baby names?"
"Lets think of boy names first....then tomorrow night girls....then boys again... then girls..." Cheekily Mark grins.
"Jeez... how many kids are we having?!"
"You know what i mean... what names were you thinking of? I was thinking maybe to name...if it's a boy have the middle name after your Dad...?"
Hearing those words instantly makes my heart melt. Mark knows how much my Dad meant to me before he passed away a couple years ago, and naming our child after him in spirit brings a tear to my eye. "Oh...Mark..." Tightly i wrap my arms around him.
"I love you so much Gary Barlow... and i can't wait to spend the rest of my life with you..." His hand strokes through my hair as he cuddles to my chest.
"I love you too Mark... a lot..."
Monday, 9 September 2013
Chapter 6
Yasmin's POV
Where the hell is he? He told me that he was only visiting his Mum for an hour. Anxiously i look at the clock which reads 7:15pm. Robbie's been gone 7 hours?! It wouldn't be so bad if he was alone, but the fact he's taken Eleanor with him makes me even more worried. I trust him of course i do with her, but the thing is is Robbie actually visiting his Mum?
20 minutes later the front door closes. My eyes snap open by the sound of the door. I must of dozed off. "Rob? Rob is that you?" I peer my head around the living room door noticing Eleanor's pink pram with Robbie beside it hanging up his coat.
"Oh hello you." He grins pushing the pram to the bottom of the stairs. Eleanor is sound asleep tucked up in her pink bunny blanket.
"'Oh hello you'?" Stepping towards Eleanor gently stroking her brown curl. "Where the hell have you been Robbie?!"
Slightly he frowns at me. "Don't raise your voice at me. Not around Eleanor." He walks into the living room. Why is he annoyed at me for? He's the one playing games!
"Where have you been? Why have you been out so long?" I follow him to the living room. Without looking at me he picks up the remote and starts flicking through the channels. "Don't be so ignorant!" Angrily i pull the remote from his grip.
Robbie looks up at me shaking his head a little. "What? Am i not trusted taking my daughter out? What do you think i'll do ay? Park her outside the pub whilst i knock back a gallon of ale?"
"No of course not. You know i didn't mean that. All i want to know is where you've been all these hours? You didn't even call me for running late."
He sighs a little. "I shouldn't need you to keep worrying about me... i'm a gown man... busy man sometimes... because of...work... trust me? You did marry me for me...right?" Softly he plants a kiss onto my forehead wrapping his arms around my waist. I can't lie. I did marry him for himself it's just that i don't like all this sneaking around he's been doing. Feeling his arms around my waist causes my head to rest against his chest. He knows that his touch always brings me around.
"Sorry..." Muttering against his chest as i inhale his scent.
"No need to be... is there anything else you'd like to-" The sound of the doorbell ringing cuts Robbie's sentence short. "Who could that be at this time?" He whispers whilst making his way to the front door.
"Alright Rob!" A cheerful voice speaks. Is that Mark? What's he doing here? Slowly i creep around the door. Standing beside Mark is Gary rubbing his hands together from the coldness.
"Evening lads?" Robbie smiles looking a bit confused at the pair. "Wanna come in?"
Walking over to Eleanor carefully i lift her from the pram. "I'll take her to bed Rob...Hiya boys." I smile whilst walking upstairs to Eleanor's room.
Gary's POV
Linking arms with Mark we walk inside. Are we seriously going to ask this? I know it's been a couple of days since we discussed about having a baby together maybe it's too soon. "Want a drink or anything?" Robbie asks as me and Mark sit together on his sofa. I feel so awkward me and Robbie still aren't the best of mates. No chance could i go through with saying this by myself. "That'll be great please Rob. It's freezing outside makes you think how quick Christmas is coming round." Mark grins softly stroking my knee.
"Oh don't it's not until another 3months or so yet... too much fuss i say. Two coffees?"
"Yes please..." I smile a little watching Robbie walk to the kitchen to make our drinks.
Mark turns to me. "Babe? What is it? Come on everything will be ok honest. We don't know unless we ask." He wraps his arms tightly around me warming me slightly.
"I know... but you can't blame me for being nervous right? I mean with everything which has-"
"Ssssh..." Mark places his finger on my lips. "That's in the past babe... just think about our future... the three of us..." Softly he kisses my lips.
"Ayup!" Robbie giggles placing two mugs down on the coffee table. "What's going off here then?"
"Was just warming Gaz up."
"I don't think that's the way you'd do the warming up Markie." Robbie winks. "So what's up? What brings you down here?"
Nervously i play with my fingers. Yasmin walks into the room wearing a silk dressing gown. Instantly Robbie narrows his eyes over in my direction seeing the way i'm looking at her. My eyes aim towards the floor instead. Tonight isn't the night for fighting. "Babe... i'm gonna head to bed." Yasmin yawns a little placing a kiss onto Robbie's forehead.
"No...wait not yet." Mark lifts his hand to Yasmin's direction. My heart starts pounding in my chest this is real we're actually going to ask them.
"Huh? Why not?" She looks confused at the pair of us. Still my eyes are staring at the floor. Mark wraps his hand around mine.
"Because we've got some news to tell you both..." A wide smile appears on Mark's face. Of course i'm excited about having a baby, but it's just asking Yasmin to be the carrier for us which is the problem for me.
"Go ahead." Robbie wraps his arm around Yasmin allowing her to sit beside him. Both of them slightly smiling at us.
"Well...we've been talking...and...me and Gary have decided we want to start a family...so we're going to have a baby."
Silence fills the room for a couple of seconds. "Wow! Congrats!" Robbie holds his hand out in front of Mark then me.
"Thank you." I force out a small smile at him whilst shaking his hand.
"Awwh that's great. Pleased for you both." Yasmin smiles placing a cheek on each of our cheeks.
"So...which one of you are pregnant." Robbie jokes sipping his coke.
"Rob..." Yasmin playfully taps his arm. "Are you going to be adopting then?"
"Erm... no..." I bite my lip a little looking at Mark.
Mark strokes my hand showing me comfort. "We're going to do IVF."
"Awww that's sweet... who's your surrogate?" She gives us a friendly smile whilst resting her head against Robbie's upperarm.
"Well...we haven't got one....not yet...but that's why we've come here tonight..." Mark pauses a little squeezing my hand a little harder.
"Are you saying what i think you're saying?" Robbie raises his eyebrow at us. The tone of his voice has dropped from happy to a more serious tone.
Mark nods a little. "We were wondering...if Yasmin... would do us the honor.."
"No. No chance." Robbie shakes his head.
"But-"
"No Mark. I said no. My wife will not do that. Sorry."
Looking up a little i look at Yasmin. She just sits there biting her lip a little not saying a word. "M...Maybe...let Yaz...h..have a say?"
Feeling Robbie's eyes burn at me i didn't think that through. "Oh i wonder who's idea this was. Maybe the man trying to get back into my wife's knickers??!"
"That's not true! And you goddamn well know it! That is in the past i love Mark and i want to start a family with him!" Angrily i snap back at Robbie standing to my feet.
"Right and you're a 'changed man' now are you? Doesn't change a thing! I saw the way you looked at her when she walked into the room. That's the past my arse." Robbie walks towards me turning my legs into jelly.
"Bollocks! That is not true and you know it! I fucked up, but that was the old me. I'd never hurt Mark and if you don't believe me then fine... at least i'm not the one who's sneaking around!" The words slip out my mouth unable to control my lips. Shit. What did i just say? Anger builds in Robbie's face.
"You fucking idiot!" He pulls his fist back. My eyes close tight and my hands guard my face expecting the force of his fist to make contact with my face any second.
"Ouch!!" A voice calls as something falls to my feet. Quickly my eyes open seeing Mark on the floor defending his face in his hands.
"Oh shit...Mark... i'm sorry mate... i didn't...mean to..." Robbie backs up a little. Mark must of jumped in front of me taking the punch.
"WHAT THE HELL??!" I shout jumping to my knees pulling Mark's head into my lap. Blood begins to pour from his nose and onto my clothes.
Yasmin looks shaken as she makes her way over to us on the floor. Robbie continues to just stand and watch us. "We're getting out of here. You absolute twat! This is the last time you're gonna see us again. Come on babe." Trying my best i help Mark to his feet.
"Wait!" Yasmin calls after us as we walk to the front door.
"Babe?" Robbie looks at her placing his hand onto her arm which she shrugs off.
"Yes..." She breathes faster looking at us. "I'll do it."
Where the hell is he? He told me that he was only visiting his Mum for an hour. Anxiously i look at the clock which reads 7:15pm. Robbie's been gone 7 hours?! It wouldn't be so bad if he was alone, but the fact he's taken Eleanor with him makes me even more worried. I trust him of course i do with her, but the thing is is Robbie actually visiting his Mum?
20 minutes later the front door closes. My eyes snap open by the sound of the door. I must of dozed off. "Rob? Rob is that you?" I peer my head around the living room door noticing Eleanor's pink pram with Robbie beside it hanging up his coat.
"Oh hello you." He grins pushing the pram to the bottom of the stairs. Eleanor is sound asleep tucked up in her pink bunny blanket.
"'Oh hello you'?" Stepping towards Eleanor gently stroking her brown curl. "Where the hell have you been Robbie?!"
Slightly he frowns at me. "Don't raise your voice at me. Not around Eleanor." He walks into the living room. Why is he annoyed at me for? He's the one playing games!
"Where have you been? Why have you been out so long?" I follow him to the living room. Without looking at me he picks up the remote and starts flicking through the channels. "Don't be so ignorant!" Angrily i pull the remote from his grip.
Robbie looks up at me shaking his head a little. "What? Am i not trusted taking my daughter out? What do you think i'll do ay? Park her outside the pub whilst i knock back a gallon of ale?"
"No of course not. You know i didn't mean that. All i want to know is where you've been all these hours? You didn't even call me for running late."
He sighs a little. "I shouldn't need you to keep worrying about me... i'm a gown man... busy man sometimes... because of...work... trust me? You did marry me for me...right?" Softly he plants a kiss onto my forehead wrapping his arms around my waist. I can't lie. I did marry him for himself it's just that i don't like all this sneaking around he's been doing. Feeling his arms around my waist causes my head to rest against his chest. He knows that his touch always brings me around.
"Sorry..." Muttering against his chest as i inhale his scent.
"No need to be... is there anything else you'd like to-" The sound of the doorbell ringing cuts Robbie's sentence short. "Who could that be at this time?" He whispers whilst making his way to the front door.
"Alright Rob!" A cheerful voice speaks. Is that Mark? What's he doing here? Slowly i creep around the door. Standing beside Mark is Gary rubbing his hands together from the coldness.
"Evening lads?" Robbie smiles looking a bit confused at the pair. "Wanna come in?"
Walking over to Eleanor carefully i lift her from the pram. "I'll take her to bed Rob...Hiya boys." I smile whilst walking upstairs to Eleanor's room.
Gary's POV
Linking arms with Mark we walk inside. Are we seriously going to ask this? I know it's been a couple of days since we discussed about having a baby together maybe it's too soon. "Want a drink or anything?" Robbie asks as me and Mark sit together on his sofa. I feel so awkward me and Robbie still aren't the best of mates. No chance could i go through with saying this by myself. "That'll be great please Rob. It's freezing outside makes you think how quick Christmas is coming round." Mark grins softly stroking my knee.
"Oh don't it's not until another 3months or so yet... too much fuss i say. Two coffees?"
"Yes please..." I smile a little watching Robbie walk to the kitchen to make our drinks.
Mark turns to me. "Babe? What is it? Come on everything will be ok honest. We don't know unless we ask." He wraps his arms tightly around me warming me slightly.
"I know... but you can't blame me for being nervous right? I mean with everything which has-"
"Ssssh..." Mark places his finger on my lips. "That's in the past babe... just think about our future... the three of us..." Softly he kisses my lips.
"Ayup!" Robbie giggles placing two mugs down on the coffee table. "What's going off here then?"
"Was just warming Gaz up."
"I don't think that's the way you'd do the warming up Markie." Robbie winks. "So what's up? What brings you down here?"
Nervously i play with my fingers. Yasmin walks into the room wearing a silk dressing gown. Instantly Robbie narrows his eyes over in my direction seeing the way i'm looking at her. My eyes aim towards the floor instead. Tonight isn't the night for fighting. "Babe... i'm gonna head to bed." Yasmin yawns a little placing a kiss onto Robbie's forehead.
"No...wait not yet." Mark lifts his hand to Yasmin's direction. My heart starts pounding in my chest this is real we're actually going to ask them.
"Huh? Why not?" She looks confused at the pair of us. Still my eyes are staring at the floor. Mark wraps his hand around mine.
"Because we've got some news to tell you both..." A wide smile appears on Mark's face. Of course i'm excited about having a baby, but it's just asking Yasmin to be the carrier for us which is the problem for me.
"Go ahead." Robbie wraps his arm around Yasmin allowing her to sit beside him. Both of them slightly smiling at us.
"Well...we've been talking...and...me and Gary have decided we want to start a family...so we're going to have a baby."
Silence fills the room for a couple of seconds. "Wow! Congrats!" Robbie holds his hand out in front of Mark then me.
"Thank you." I force out a small smile at him whilst shaking his hand.
"Awwh that's great. Pleased for you both." Yasmin smiles placing a cheek on each of our cheeks.
"So...which one of you are pregnant." Robbie jokes sipping his coke.
"Rob..." Yasmin playfully taps his arm. "Are you going to be adopting then?"
"Erm... no..." I bite my lip a little looking at Mark.
Mark strokes my hand showing me comfort. "We're going to do IVF."
"Awww that's sweet... who's your surrogate?" She gives us a friendly smile whilst resting her head against Robbie's upperarm.
"Well...we haven't got one....not yet...but that's why we've come here tonight..." Mark pauses a little squeezing my hand a little harder.
"Are you saying what i think you're saying?" Robbie raises his eyebrow at us. The tone of his voice has dropped from happy to a more serious tone.
Mark nods a little. "We were wondering...if Yasmin... would do us the honor.."
"No. No chance." Robbie shakes his head.
"But-"
"No Mark. I said no. My wife will not do that. Sorry."
Looking up a little i look at Yasmin. She just sits there biting her lip a little not saying a word. "M...Maybe...let Yaz...h..have a say?"
Feeling Robbie's eyes burn at me i didn't think that through. "Oh i wonder who's idea this was. Maybe the man trying to get back into my wife's knickers??!"
"That's not true! And you goddamn well know it! That is in the past i love Mark and i want to start a family with him!" Angrily i snap back at Robbie standing to my feet.
"Right and you're a 'changed man' now are you? Doesn't change a thing! I saw the way you looked at her when she walked into the room. That's the past my arse." Robbie walks towards me turning my legs into jelly.
"Bollocks! That is not true and you know it! I fucked up, but that was the old me. I'd never hurt Mark and if you don't believe me then fine... at least i'm not the one who's sneaking around!" The words slip out my mouth unable to control my lips. Shit. What did i just say? Anger builds in Robbie's face.
"You fucking idiot!" He pulls his fist back. My eyes close tight and my hands guard my face expecting the force of his fist to make contact with my face any second.
"Ouch!!" A voice calls as something falls to my feet. Quickly my eyes open seeing Mark on the floor defending his face in his hands.
"Oh shit...Mark... i'm sorry mate... i didn't...mean to..." Robbie backs up a little. Mark must of jumped in front of me taking the punch.
"WHAT THE HELL??!" I shout jumping to my knees pulling Mark's head into my lap. Blood begins to pour from his nose and onto my clothes.
Yasmin looks shaken as she makes her way over to us on the floor. Robbie continues to just stand and watch us. "We're getting out of here. You absolute twat! This is the last time you're gonna see us again. Come on babe." Trying my best i help Mark to his feet.
"Wait!" Yasmin calls after us as we walk to the front door.
"Babe?" Robbie looks at her placing his hand onto her arm which she shrugs off.
"Yes..." She breathes faster looking at us. "I'll do it."
Thursday, 5 September 2013
Chapter 5
Mark rubs his temples a few times. "Mark... what is it? What's wrong?" Nervously i ask placing my hand onto his leg gently stroking it. "If i've done anything wro-"
"No... you haven't..." Immediately cutting in Mark looks at me. Softly he sighs. "I don't want to push you... so please tell me to shut up..."
"You're scaring me now lad.... what are you trying to say? D...do you want to call it the end? Is that it??" Sickness swirls around my stomach and tears begin to build in my eyes. I can't loose him. That will be end of me. "I'm such a prat....i knew you could never trust me after the affair with Yasmin.... god i'm sorry... i'm so sorry Mark." The best i can i stumble to my feet holding my back whilst the tears come streaming down my face.
"I want to have a baby with you!!!" Mark shouts before i leave the room. His breathing increases and his eyes sadden a little. "I want us to have a baby... the two of us.... more than anything in the world... i'm not getting any younger... i'm a 41 year old man... i don't want to be on my last legs before his or her first birthday... i want to be that fun Dad who runs through fields, who goes swimming, who plays football, who questions the boyfriend or girlfriends..." He wipes his eyes. "I'm sorry Gary... i shouldn't of said any of that.. forget it."
For a minute or two i just stand there in a daze. My eyes fix on his face. Mark's eyes flicker in all directions worried to give me eye contact. Did he really just ask me that? He wants a baby with me? A lump forms in my throat preventing me from talking. "Gary...please...please say something? Forget what i said... i didn't mean to cause offence... i just wanted us to be a family... that's all... i'm sorry..."
Slowly i walk back to the sofa stroking my forehead with my now sweating palm. It feels like i've lost the ability to speak. This is a big decision. We're middle aged men. This isn't going to be easy especially with no experience. "Do... do you mean it? This is a big thing Mark... it might not seem it... you know... a small cuddly baby... this is serious... and it will be hard work..."
"I know... i've looked into it... i know it's going to be hard...but.. we work as a team...right?"
Taking everything in slowly butterflies form in my stomach unexpectedly. My mind drifts off for a couple of seconds. Imagining everything Mark's just said to me. Me, Mark and our baby. A baby... our baby. As i look up at Mark still words failing to leave my mouth i picture him. In his arms holding a small bundle making silly noises to the child wrapped in blankets. 'Say 'ello to Daddy... {Mark does a child's voice.} 'ello Daddy.' A small smile starts to form on my face. Quickly i shake my head from the thought. Mark nudges my shoulder. "Gaz? You're staring at me what's wrong?"
"Yes..." I whisper it's barely audible.
With a confused look Mark raises both of his eyebrows. "Huh?"
I place both of my hands onto his shoulders. "Yes...my answer is yes.... i want a baby with you.... more than anything... It'll be hard work...but you're right...we're a team." Gently i take his hands in mine swirling my thumb around the top of his hand.
Mark blinks his eyes at me several times searching my face seeing if i'm being serious or it's all a joke. "R...rea...really..?" He stutters still staring deep into my eyes.
"Y...Yes... really Mark... i want us to be a family... you...me... and Mark or Gary junior." Unable to hide it anymore a huge grin spreads onto my face.
Mark's mouth drops open a little. "Oh...w...wow...oh...god...oh...oh Gary!!" He almost jumps onto my lap wrapping his arms tightly around the back of my neck as he starts to sob against my chest.
"Ah...ah easy..." I wince a little from the pain in my back gently wrapping my arms around him. A few tears roll from my eyes and soak into his hair not believing it myself.
"S...sorry...i'm just... speechless..."
"That's a first." I laugh teasing him a little. "I love you."
Mark pouts his lips at me. "Meanie... I love you too..."
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"Here you go babe." Mark returns from the kitchen carrying two mugs of coffee.
Taking my mug from him i smile. "Thank you..." He sits beside me gently sipping from his steaming mug. "So..."
"So..." Mark clears his throat smiling a little peering from the rim of his mug.
Right now i couldn't be happier. We're going to be parents. This is going to be the happiest time of our lives. "You said you looked into it?"
A shade of red appears on Mark's face as he fiddles with the mug's handle. "Eh...y...yeah... for a couple of months now..."
"Months?! Seriously?" Feeling a little shocked that he's kept it secret all this time. After all Mark isn't always great at keeping secrets especially not ones like this. Wonder what else he's hiding..?
"Y...yeah...s..sorry..." He gulps looking down to the floor slightly.
Using a single finger under his chin i lift his head so i can look into his eyes. "Hey...don't be sorry...." I run my other hand through his soft messy hair. "Show us then?"
"Show?"
Cheekily i roll my eyes. "What's happened to that brain of yours? Baby brain already?" I laugh. "Show us your research."
A huge cheesy grin appears on Mark's face as he dives to the side of the sofa dragging out his laptop.
He scrolls through a few of his bookmarks. Something catches my eye from the list of bookmarks causing me to giggle. "Sexy adult fireman costume??"
"Erm...that's...erm... nothing..." Mark pushes his head further to the laptop screen hiding his embarrassed face. "Here..."
A website opens. 'Becoming parents... the IVF way.' Along with 3 pages of information describing the whole IVF process. Depending on the woman it could take from a month - 2. "IVF? Not adoption?"
Mark nods. "It makes it more official... to be our baby...right? But it's going to be costly..."
"That's not my concern... the main one is that it doesn't always work out... it's not 100%....my other is... we need a surrogate to actually carry the baby... will we be ok with a stranger carrying our baby for us?"
Not replying to my question Mark sips from his mug again playing with his fingers. "Mark? What is it?"
"Well... she wouldn't be a stranger..." He swallows hard.
Feeling even more confused now i turn the laptop away so i can focus on Mark. "What are you saying?"
"M...Maybe...erm..."
"Well?"
"Maybe... i've been thinking that...erm....Y...Yasmin...could....carry...our baby..."
"No... you haven't..." Immediately cutting in Mark looks at me. Softly he sighs. "I don't want to push you... so please tell me to shut up..."
"You're scaring me now lad.... what are you trying to say? D...do you want to call it the end? Is that it??" Sickness swirls around my stomach and tears begin to build in my eyes. I can't loose him. That will be end of me. "I'm such a prat....i knew you could never trust me after the affair with Yasmin.... god i'm sorry... i'm so sorry Mark." The best i can i stumble to my feet holding my back whilst the tears come streaming down my face.
"I want to have a baby with you!!!" Mark shouts before i leave the room. His breathing increases and his eyes sadden a little. "I want us to have a baby... the two of us.... more than anything in the world... i'm not getting any younger... i'm a 41 year old man... i don't want to be on my last legs before his or her first birthday... i want to be that fun Dad who runs through fields, who goes swimming, who plays football, who questions the boyfriend or girlfriends..." He wipes his eyes. "I'm sorry Gary... i shouldn't of said any of that.. forget it."
For a minute or two i just stand there in a daze. My eyes fix on his face. Mark's eyes flicker in all directions worried to give me eye contact. Did he really just ask me that? He wants a baby with me? A lump forms in my throat preventing me from talking. "Gary...please...please say something? Forget what i said... i didn't mean to cause offence... i just wanted us to be a family... that's all... i'm sorry..."
Slowly i walk back to the sofa stroking my forehead with my now sweating palm. It feels like i've lost the ability to speak. This is a big decision. We're middle aged men. This isn't going to be easy especially with no experience. "Do... do you mean it? This is a big thing Mark... it might not seem it... you know... a small cuddly baby... this is serious... and it will be hard work..."
"I know... i've looked into it... i know it's going to be hard...but.. we work as a team...right?"
Taking everything in slowly butterflies form in my stomach unexpectedly. My mind drifts off for a couple of seconds. Imagining everything Mark's just said to me. Me, Mark and our baby. A baby... our baby. As i look up at Mark still words failing to leave my mouth i picture him. In his arms holding a small bundle making silly noises to the child wrapped in blankets. 'Say 'ello to Daddy... {Mark does a child's voice.} 'ello Daddy.' A small smile starts to form on my face. Quickly i shake my head from the thought. Mark nudges my shoulder. "Gaz? You're staring at me what's wrong?"
"Yes..." I whisper it's barely audible.
With a confused look Mark raises both of his eyebrows. "Huh?"
I place both of my hands onto his shoulders. "Yes...my answer is yes.... i want a baby with you.... more than anything... It'll be hard work...but you're right...we're a team." Gently i take his hands in mine swirling my thumb around the top of his hand.
Mark blinks his eyes at me several times searching my face seeing if i'm being serious or it's all a joke. "R...rea...really..?" He stutters still staring deep into my eyes.
"Y...Yes... really Mark... i want us to be a family... you...me... and Mark or Gary junior." Unable to hide it anymore a huge grin spreads onto my face.
Mark's mouth drops open a little. "Oh...w...wow...oh...god...oh...oh Gary!!" He almost jumps onto my lap wrapping his arms tightly around the back of my neck as he starts to sob against my chest.
"Ah...ah easy..." I wince a little from the pain in my back gently wrapping my arms around him. A few tears roll from my eyes and soak into his hair not believing it myself.
"S...sorry...i'm just... speechless..."
"That's a first." I laugh teasing him a little. "I love you."
Mark pouts his lips at me. "Meanie... I love you too..."
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"Here you go babe." Mark returns from the kitchen carrying two mugs of coffee.
Taking my mug from him i smile. "Thank you..." He sits beside me gently sipping from his steaming mug. "So..."
"So..." Mark clears his throat smiling a little peering from the rim of his mug.
Right now i couldn't be happier. We're going to be parents. This is going to be the happiest time of our lives. "You said you looked into it?"
A shade of red appears on Mark's face as he fiddles with the mug's handle. "Eh...y...yeah... for a couple of months now..."
"Months?! Seriously?" Feeling a little shocked that he's kept it secret all this time. After all Mark isn't always great at keeping secrets especially not ones like this. Wonder what else he's hiding..?
"Y...yeah...s..sorry..." He gulps looking down to the floor slightly.
Using a single finger under his chin i lift his head so i can look into his eyes. "Hey...don't be sorry...." I run my other hand through his soft messy hair. "Show us then?"
"Show?"
Cheekily i roll my eyes. "What's happened to that brain of yours? Baby brain already?" I laugh. "Show us your research."
A huge cheesy grin appears on Mark's face as he dives to the side of the sofa dragging out his laptop.
He scrolls through a few of his bookmarks. Something catches my eye from the list of bookmarks causing me to giggle. "Sexy adult fireman costume??"
"Erm...that's...erm... nothing..." Mark pushes his head further to the laptop screen hiding his embarrassed face. "Here..."
A website opens. 'Becoming parents... the IVF way.' Along with 3 pages of information describing the whole IVF process. Depending on the woman it could take from a month - 2. "IVF? Not adoption?"
Mark nods. "It makes it more official... to be our baby...right? But it's going to be costly..."
"That's not my concern... the main one is that it doesn't always work out... it's not 100%....my other is... we need a surrogate to actually carry the baby... will we be ok with a stranger carrying our baby for us?"
Not replying to my question Mark sips from his mug again playing with his fingers. "Mark? What is it?"
"Well... she wouldn't be a stranger..." He swallows hard.
Feeling even more confused now i turn the laptop away so i can focus on Mark. "What are you saying?"
"M...Maybe...erm..."
"Well?"
"Maybe... i've been thinking that...erm....Y...Yasmin...could....carry...our baby..."
Tuesday, 3 September 2013
chapter 4
Mark's POV
Where am I? My legs feel numb from the coldness of water which I'm laying in. Did I faint? I remember walking then stopping gripping my head and now I'm laying in a heap of cold mud. Quickly I move my legs as I try to get to my feet. Gary will be worried out of his head he'll be grey before we know it especially with me around. As I stand up I notice something wrapped around me. A vest? Gary's vest? B..but...why do I have this? My eyes glance around the dark woods. They set on something laying in the mud which has been beside me the whole time. "Gary? Gary???" Jumping to my knees in the mud again I cup his face. "Baby wake up!" Shaking him a little trying to make him open his eyes.
A loud groan leave his lips as he let's out a breathless whisper. "P...P..Pain.." His hand instantly grips to his back. How am I going to get him back now if he can't walk?? I can just carry a bag of sugar never mind a full grown man! The colour on his face has faded into a more white colour. His skin feels like ice seeing his bare chest breathe very slowly. I've got to get the others and fast.
"I'm going to get help ok Gary? I'm going to get you out of here." Softly I kiss him on the lips. Coldness sharply hits mine from his. If we don't get him out of here soon we won't be leaving with him.
Quickly I start to run through the wood. "HELP!!" Shouting loudly as I run. "OW!!" My head bounces against something causing me to fall flat on my bum.
"Mark?? Jeeez what's happened?!" A figure bends down to me on the floor. Blinking my eyes a few times I now see that me and Howard headbutted one another.
"Howard!!" Grabbing his hand whilst I get to my feet. "Come! Come! You've got to help Gary!" Running back to where I left Gary dragging Howard along with me.
"Mark? Why are you covered in mud?? And where's Gary?" He asks worried whilst almost having his arm pulled off.
"I'll explain later..." We reach the spot where Gary is. His eyes are still closed tight as he lays on his right hand side in the mud.
"Holy...s....shit..." Howard gulps looking at a shirtless Gary. "G...Gaz...Its...Howard...mate...we're going to get you out...." Howard looks up at me. I can see it in his eyes that he's trying to tell me something...something I know could happen, but instead I choose to ignore it getting back on my knees again.
"I get his head you get his legs." Instructing, as I get a secure grip of Gary.
Doing as he's told Howard nods whilst reaching for Gary's legs. "On three..One...two....three!" We both lift Gary up. Gary's heavier than I thought! His eyes keep opening and closing from the pain. Slipping and sliding through the mud we struggle getting back to our tents.
"He...he's...going to be...ok...right?" Nervously I ask watching Gary breathe as we walk back.
Howard gives me a reassuring smile. "He's strong Mark... He's a strong man..."
Tears roll down my eyes. "This is all my fault..."
"Mar-"
"No Howard...it is... If I didn't walk off I wouldn't of fainted and he wouldn't of come to look for me." Gripping my bottom lip stopping my tears from falling. I can't break down now.
"Why did you faint?" Howard asks concerned. Shrugging a little. "Just some stuff...I just needed to clear my head." Trying to avoid the subject I look behind my shoulder noticing our tent area again. "JASON!! ROBBIE!!" I call holding Gary tighter. Jason appears noticing us carrying a lifeless Gary. He comes running to our direction bringing Robbie with him.
Jason's jaw drops. "G...Gary?"
"Please Jay help us...." My knees feel weak like i'm about to faint again. Seeing Gary like this instantly kills me inside.
"Mark you need to sit down...you look like a ghost... get Yaz in the car, so she can get you cleaned up and we'll set off to the hospital ok?" Robbie takes hold of Gary's head in his arms. I feel like i'm on a roller coaster i can't faint again not now. Quickly i walk over to Yasmin holding back the tears the best i can.
"Mark! Oh gosh what's happened to you??" She jumps up from her chair covering my forehead where my wound is.
"Ow.." I hiss a little pulling my head away. "G...Gary...he..." Unable to hold the tears back any longer as they come flooding down my cheeks.
"Oh Mark..." Yasmin pulls me into a hug softly stroking my back, as i cry in her arms.
After a 15minute drive we finally arrive at the hospital. Gary's eyes are partly open. "Gaz mate...we're at the hospital. How're you feeling now?" Howard looks down at Gary who lays on mine and Howard's lap on the backseat of the car.
"My...b..back..." Gary frowns from the pain.
My heart sinks. What can i say to him? He's going to hate me for making this happen. Robbie calls a few doctors over who have a wheelchair with them. Very gently they help Gary out of the car and into it before wheeling him inside. Trying to keep up with them Robbie stops me. "Huh? Rob move i need to be with Gary."
"No. You need that cut looked at. We don't want that to get infected do we? Plus we need to know why you fainted. Gary wont want you unwell. We'll be with him ok?"
"But-"
"No buts Mark. Hop to it lad." Robbie walks after Jason, Howard and Yasmin. Doing as i'm told i walk to the waiting area to get my wound looked at.
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"Ok thank you... yes i'll take it easy thank you." I close the door behind me. A quick check over and i'm done. 3stitches in my eyebrow. The reason why i fainted was due to stress all i need is a few hours sleep and i'll be back to my normal self again. Whilst walking to find Gary's room i notice Jason talking to a female receptionist . "Jay!"
He looks up and smiles. "Alright Markie? Have you seen Gary yet?"
"No? Why what's happened?? Is he ok?!" Nervously i ask.
Jason shakes his head. "Calm down mate he's perfectly fine. He's got some heat pad thing on his back and some pain killers. Robbie and Howard are with him. He's allowed home or something..?"
Feeling shocked by what i'm hearing i look confused at him. "He's allowed out already?!"
"Yeah? Thought you'd look a bit more pleased than that mate?"
Why am i acting like this? I should be on cloud 9 over the fact Gary's ok. "S...sorry...i'm just tired."
"Don't be sorry mate... go get the others, so we can head off home...and you two can get to bed." He smiles at me turning back to the receptionist.
Where the fuck is his room? Peering through each door along corridors this is going to take forever! "Sir? Can i help you?" A tall brown haired middle aged man looks at me wearing a white coat.
"Erm... i'm looking for my boyfriend. Gary? Gary Barlow?"
"Ah yes right this way. Follow me." He walks a head in front with me shortly following behind him. "He's in here. When you're ready to leave make sure Mr Barlow signs out at the check in desk."
I nod and walk inside. Gary is sat up on the edge of the bed with Howard and Robbie standing beside him gently chatting. As soon as i walk into the room Gary's head instantly lifts and his eyes lighten up. "Mark!"
"Oh Gary..." My hands cover my mouth still feeling confused and shocked after this strange day. A few tears roll down my cheeks. "I'm...s..so...s...sorry..." I sob in my hands.
"Mark? Babe what's wrong? Come over here...come on.." Gary pats the bed a worried look appears on his face. "I'm fine... i'm feeling much better... the pain has eased off a lot." Slowly i walk over to him sitting on the bed. His hand strokes through my fringe accidentally he touches my stitches causing me to yelp a little. "Oh shit i'm so sorry Mark! Are you ok?"
Without saying anything i just nod resting my head against his shoulder. All of boys stare at me concerned. I really don't feel myself. All i want to do is go home and sleep in Gary's arms.
"Should we get going then?" Robbie walks towards the door. "Yaz is asleep in the car, and you two need your rest. We'll drop you off first i'll bring the car back later?"
"That'll be great. Thanks Rob." Gary wraps his arm around me.
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"Babe? Wake up we're home." A soft whisper speaks in my ear causing me to open my eyes. How long have i been asleep? Slowly i sit up looking out the window seeing our house. "Go inside i'll join you in a sec ok? Just gonna say my goodbyes and thank yous. You look tired out."
"Ok..." Nodding slightly i do as Gary says. "Thanks for a good weekend.." I mutter whilst leaving the car to walk to our house. As soon as i walk inside the door i go straight upstairs. Not even bothering to get undressed i flop onto the bed wrapping the duvet around me as i kick off my shoes. My heavy eyes instantly close as my head sinks into my pillow.
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Gary's POV
Carefully i make my way to our bedroom. The pain in my back has started to kick in again. As quiet as possible i open the bedroom door to find Mark fully clothed in our bed. Something is wrong with him. Something he's hiding from me. "Baby?" Softly i whisper entering the room. Mark lays there his head partly sunk into the pillow with his hand positioned on the side of his cheek. Maybe he's just tired. Hopefully we can have a better talk tomorrow after both of us have had a good night's rest.
After getting undressed very gently i get into bed joining Mark allowing my arm to rest on his hip. I can't believe how much has happened today, and i'm still sort of shocked over the fact that Mark didn't look too pleased about me coming home. Stirring in his sleep Mark moves onto his left hand side now facing me our noses almost touching. Within a few seconds he changes positions again...and again. "Fuck..sake." An annoyed whisper leaves his lips. Watching the younger man fight with the duvet searching for that comfortable position the battle is soon lost, as Mark rips back the duvet standing to his feet. Before i get chance to ask him if 'everything is ok' he slides out the partly open door going downstairs. Hearing his bare feet shuffle on the laminate floor in the living room suddenly things go silent. Feeling exhausted with a slight twinge in my back i decide with the last remaining part of my strength to go down and check everything is ok.
Very quietly i creep downstairs whilst holding my hand onto my back pushing pressure onto it releasing some of the pain. The living room is dark. Pitch black almost only having the street lights from outside to lighten up the room. Mark is laid on the sofa with one leg up and the other fixed to the floor. His eyes are shut firmly with his mouth partly open, so i can hear his breathing. The sofa isn't an ideal place for him to sleep. He needs a proper nights sleep. "Mark...? Mark...come on you need to sleep in our bed." Gently i touch his shoulder.
"Mmm..." Mark lolls his head back whilst his eyelids flicker."Why..?" The back of his hand rests over his eyes.
He can be such a stubborn man sometimes when he's moody. "Because you'll have a fucked up back like me. Come on."
Mark sighs a little. His eyes stare at the ceiling. "I don't want to... i'm fine here..."
Slowly i sit on the sofa shuffling his legs over a little. "What's on your mind?"
"Nothi-"
"Mark i know there's something. You fainted from stress? Now you're not acting yourself...please tell me?"
He hand runs through his fringe as he sits up slightly. "Maybe i'm being stupid and rushing things...but i've been thinking..."
Jason's jaw drops. "G...Gary?"
"Please Jay help us...." My knees feel weak like i'm about to faint again. Seeing Gary like this instantly kills me inside.
"Mark you need to sit down...you look like a ghost... get Yaz in the car, so she can get you cleaned up and we'll set off to the hospital ok?" Robbie takes hold of Gary's head in his arms. I feel like i'm on a roller coaster i can't faint again not now. Quickly i walk over to Yasmin holding back the tears the best i can.
"Mark! Oh gosh what's happened to you??" She jumps up from her chair covering my forehead where my wound is.
"Ow.." I hiss a little pulling my head away. "G...Gary...he..." Unable to hold the tears back any longer as they come flooding down my cheeks.
"Oh Mark..." Yasmin pulls me into a hug softly stroking my back, as i cry in her arms.
After a 15minute drive we finally arrive at the hospital. Gary's eyes are partly open. "Gaz mate...we're at the hospital. How're you feeling now?" Howard looks down at Gary who lays on mine and Howard's lap on the backseat of the car.
"My...b..back..." Gary frowns from the pain.
My heart sinks. What can i say to him? He's going to hate me for making this happen. Robbie calls a few doctors over who have a wheelchair with them. Very gently they help Gary out of the car and into it before wheeling him inside. Trying to keep up with them Robbie stops me. "Huh? Rob move i need to be with Gary."
"No. You need that cut looked at. We don't want that to get infected do we? Plus we need to know why you fainted. Gary wont want you unwell. We'll be with him ok?"
"But-"
"No buts Mark. Hop to it lad." Robbie walks after Jason, Howard and Yasmin. Doing as i'm told i walk to the waiting area to get my wound looked at.
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"Ok thank you... yes i'll take it easy thank you." I close the door behind me. A quick check over and i'm done. 3stitches in my eyebrow. The reason why i fainted was due to stress all i need is a few hours sleep and i'll be back to my normal self again. Whilst walking to find Gary's room i notice Jason talking to a female receptionist . "Jay!"
He looks up and smiles. "Alright Markie? Have you seen Gary yet?"
"No? Why what's happened?? Is he ok?!" Nervously i ask.
Jason shakes his head. "Calm down mate he's perfectly fine. He's got some heat pad thing on his back and some pain killers. Robbie and Howard are with him. He's allowed home or something..?"
Feeling shocked by what i'm hearing i look confused at him. "He's allowed out already?!"
"Yeah? Thought you'd look a bit more pleased than that mate?"
Why am i acting like this? I should be on cloud 9 over the fact Gary's ok. "S...sorry...i'm just tired."
"Don't be sorry mate... go get the others, so we can head off home...and you two can get to bed." He smiles at me turning back to the receptionist.
Where the fuck is his room? Peering through each door along corridors this is going to take forever! "Sir? Can i help you?" A tall brown haired middle aged man looks at me wearing a white coat.
"Erm... i'm looking for my boyfriend. Gary? Gary Barlow?"
"Ah yes right this way. Follow me." He walks a head in front with me shortly following behind him. "He's in here. When you're ready to leave make sure Mr Barlow signs out at the check in desk."
I nod and walk inside. Gary is sat up on the edge of the bed with Howard and Robbie standing beside him gently chatting. As soon as i walk into the room Gary's head instantly lifts and his eyes lighten up. "Mark!"
"Oh Gary..." My hands cover my mouth still feeling confused and shocked after this strange day. A few tears roll down my cheeks. "I'm...s..so...s...sorry..." I sob in my hands.
"Mark? Babe what's wrong? Come over here...come on.." Gary pats the bed a worried look appears on his face. "I'm fine... i'm feeling much better... the pain has eased off a lot." Slowly i walk over to him sitting on the bed. His hand strokes through my fringe accidentally he touches my stitches causing me to yelp a little. "Oh shit i'm so sorry Mark! Are you ok?"
Without saying anything i just nod resting my head against his shoulder. All of boys stare at me concerned. I really don't feel myself. All i want to do is go home and sleep in Gary's arms.
"Should we get going then?" Robbie walks towards the door. "Yaz is asleep in the car, and you two need your rest. We'll drop you off first i'll bring the car back later?"
"That'll be great. Thanks Rob." Gary wraps his arm around me.
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"Babe? Wake up we're home." A soft whisper speaks in my ear causing me to open my eyes. How long have i been asleep? Slowly i sit up looking out the window seeing our house. "Go inside i'll join you in a sec ok? Just gonna say my goodbyes and thank yous. You look tired out."
"Ok..." Nodding slightly i do as Gary says. "Thanks for a good weekend.." I mutter whilst leaving the car to walk to our house. As soon as i walk inside the door i go straight upstairs. Not even bothering to get undressed i flop onto the bed wrapping the duvet around me as i kick off my shoes. My heavy eyes instantly close as my head sinks into my pillow.
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Gary's POV
Carefully i make my way to our bedroom. The pain in my back has started to kick in again. As quiet as possible i open the bedroom door to find Mark fully clothed in our bed. Something is wrong with him. Something he's hiding from me. "Baby?" Softly i whisper entering the room. Mark lays there his head partly sunk into the pillow with his hand positioned on the side of his cheek. Maybe he's just tired. Hopefully we can have a better talk tomorrow after both of us have had a good night's rest.
After getting undressed very gently i get into bed joining Mark allowing my arm to rest on his hip. I can't believe how much has happened today, and i'm still sort of shocked over the fact that Mark didn't look too pleased about me coming home. Stirring in his sleep Mark moves onto his left hand side now facing me our noses almost touching. Within a few seconds he changes positions again...and again. "Fuck..sake." An annoyed whisper leaves his lips. Watching the younger man fight with the duvet searching for that comfortable position the battle is soon lost, as Mark rips back the duvet standing to his feet. Before i get chance to ask him if 'everything is ok' he slides out the partly open door going downstairs. Hearing his bare feet shuffle on the laminate floor in the living room suddenly things go silent. Feeling exhausted with a slight twinge in my back i decide with the last remaining part of my strength to go down and check everything is ok.
Very quietly i creep downstairs whilst holding my hand onto my back pushing pressure onto it releasing some of the pain. The living room is dark. Pitch black almost only having the street lights from outside to lighten up the room. Mark is laid on the sofa with one leg up and the other fixed to the floor. His eyes are shut firmly with his mouth partly open, so i can hear his breathing. The sofa isn't an ideal place for him to sleep. He needs a proper nights sleep. "Mark...? Mark...come on you need to sleep in our bed." Gently i touch his shoulder.
"Mmm..." Mark lolls his head back whilst his eyelids flicker."Why..?" The back of his hand rests over his eyes.
He can be such a stubborn man sometimes when he's moody. "Because you'll have a fucked up back like me. Come on."
Mark sighs a little. His eyes stare at the ceiling. "I don't want to... i'm fine here..."
Slowly i sit on the sofa shuffling his legs over a little. "What's on your mind?"
"Nothi-"
"Mark i know there's something. You fainted from stress? Now you're not acting yourself...please tell me?"
He hand runs through his fringe as he sits up slightly. "Maybe i'm being stupid and rushing things...but i've been thinking..."
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